bile nk kawin??

apesal u still single?knape tak carik pakwe?bile nk kawin?

haih. soalan2 yg sangat ku menyampah. even though itulah soalan2 favourite org tanye (even myself) bile jumpe kwn2 yg lame tak jumpe. tak gitu? and it's like typical questions for ppl around my age. the 20-an ppl. expecially for us girls, it's like we're supposed to get married at this age or at least have a boyfriend. loceng dh nk bunyi la konon2nye. i myself feel i'm still young to get married. rase mcm budak2 je lagi. enjoy2 je lagi. can't picture myself handling responsibilities if i be somebody's wife. scary siot. i don't feel i'm layak pun. i don't feel that i'm gonna be a good wife yet.

last saturday i went to fairuza & apis's wedding. they were my seniors and the girl is my close fren's sister. mcm tak percaye je dieorg dh kawin. at the age of 24, they've already building a family. another couple of the same age, senior jugak, dh ade 2 ke 3 org anak dah. rase mcm baru je tgk kegila-gilaan deaorg kat skola dlu. terase tua la pulak kan ble tgk mereka2 nie. sedar tak sedar, we've all grown up. after the weddding, we were discussing psl kawin2 ni la. imagining how it would be like if one of our geng get married. who's gonna get married first la. mcm2. and all the question's i've said be4 came up la kan. i myself obviously la kan kene carik calon dlu baru bole kawin.

i would say most of my frens dh ade partner. boyfriends and girlfriends. i je yg still single. that's why sometimes i feel a bit lonely la. cuz dh susah nk hang out mcm dlu2. smue bz with pakwe masing2. but i don't feel lonely sbb takde pakwe but i feel lonely sbb rase cam takde kwn. sometimes i said. not all the time. at least i still have them as my friends. but seeing them happy with their partners, jealous gak kekadang. nak jugak! LOL. and they all smue pun dh actually thought of getting married. i guess ble dh jumpe yg sesuai, u don't actually feel scared about it anymore.

i kinda beleive in soulmates. i beleive that setiap org mesti ade partner. jodoh di tangan tuhan. it's just a matter of time. ade yg cepat ade yg lambat. so i just have to wait. i know i'll find someone. my friend at work once asked me, "hana bile nk kawin?" and i said "tak tau". and then another friend at work said "kawin pun tatau bile.." i said "yelaa..calon pn takde camne nk tau kawin bile?" He's 27 and he said he's gonna get married at the age of 35 ke brape tah. lupe dah. dh ade target la. i asked camne klu takde calon jugak mase tuh. he simply answered "mesti ade punye.." i like his confidence. confident gile la akan ade calon. yesterday pun we had a small talk about the same topic. he said "Dh mmg termaktub. kt akan jumpe punye teman hidup kite."

i actually agree with him. :)