I am so in love..
=)
with David Cook.
He melts my heart everytime..
exspecially with this performance..my favourite.. =)
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
best friend
i don't know if i still beleive in the term 'best friend' but i have to admit i miss having someone to be called a 'best friend'. for me, a true fren is someone who will always be there for u through ur ups and downs. the one who can give u strength and support in whatever u do and the one who cared so much about u that they don't hang out with u just because they have to but because they really wanted to.
lately, i feel like i'm lacking all that. i feel so jealous when i see ppl hanging out with their 'bestfren/s'. but then again, maybe i was too looking for perfection. maybe i wanted the attention so much that i feel i wanted someone to be with me everytime. i don't blame anyone. maybe it's just my thinking. i think about it so much i guess. the fact that i'm single unlike most of my frens might be one of the reasons i feel this way. but i thank god i still have my super duper cool frens. i feel love around me whenever i'm hanging out with my frens. i hope we'll be frens until we're married and have a family. insyaallah. to my frens who've accepted me as ur best friend, thank u so much. it means a lot. sorry if i did hurt anyone's feeling. i'm still confuse.
despite this, i do actually have someone who can truly be called a 'best friend'. that is my MUM. she's the only one i could turn to whenever i'm down. she could give me strengh and support in everything i do. we could have fun together and discuss about anything. well, almost. she'll be there, anytime, anywhere. before my mum is diagnosed with leukemia, i always 'mengadu' to her whenever i have problems. i will cry and she'll comfort me. but ever since she got sick, i don't actually 'mengadu' to her that much anymore because i know she has bigger problems herself. i don't want to burden her more with my problems. as i always have self esteem problems, i just kept it to myself. sometimes i just cry alone in my room just to let go of the feeling. my mum too always feeling down just like i do but she always acted strong in front of her kids. even when she's in the hospital when i was taking care of her, she always think of me first even though she's the one who should be taken care of.
i'm happy to see her smile again now. despite all the treatments, she is not 100% cure. although she's healthy now, i always have these thoughts.."will she be there when i'm married?","will she be there when i have babies?", "will she be there when i have to face a lot more dugaan in the future?", "will she be there when i'm successfull?" i once cried so hard because i was so scared i might lose her. day after day now, i try to spent as much time as i can with her.
well, everything happens for a reason. ade hikmahnye smue ni. i became a bit stronger. i learn to become a better daughter and to become a better person. and of course, a better muslim.
but dear GOD, please let me spent more time with my mum. my strength. my bestest friend. =)
lately, i feel like i'm lacking all that. i feel so jealous when i see ppl hanging out with their 'bestfren/s'. but then again, maybe i was too looking for perfection. maybe i wanted the attention so much that i feel i wanted someone to be with me everytime. i don't blame anyone. maybe it's just my thinking. i think about it so much i guess. the fact that i'm single unlike most of my frens might be one of the reasons i feel this way. but i thank god i still have my super duper cool frens. i feel love around me whenever i'm hanging out with my frens. i hope we'll be frens until we're married and have a family. insyaallah. to my frens who've accepted me as ur best friend, thank u so much. it means a lot. sorry if i did hurt anyone's feeling. i'm still confuse.
despite this, i do actually have someone who can truly be called a 'best friend'. that is my MUM. she's the only one i could turn to whenever i'm down. she could give me strengh and support in everything i do. we could have fun together and discuss about anything. well, almost. she'll be there, anytime, anywhere. before my mum is diagnosed with leukemia, i always 'mengadu' to her whenever i have problems. i will cry and she'll comfort me. but ever since she got sick, i don't actually 'mengadu' to her that much anymore because i know she has bigger problems herself. i don't want to burden her more with my problems. as i always have self esteem problems, i just kept it to myself. sometimes i just cry alone in my room just to let go of the feeling. my mum too always feeling down just like i do but she always acted strong in front of her kids. even when she's in the hospital when i was taking care of her, she always think of me first even though she's the one who should be taken care of.
i'm happy to see her smile again now. despite all the treatments, she is not 100% cure. although she's healthy now, i always have these thoughts.."will she be there when i'm married?","will she be there when i have babies?", "will she be there when i have to face a lot more dugaan in the future?", "will she be there when i'm successfull?" i once cried so hard because i was so scared i might lose her. day after day now, i try to spent as much time as i can with her.
well, everything happens for a reason. ade hikmahnye smue ni. i became a bit stronger. i learn to become a better daughter and to become a better person. and of course, a better muslim.
but dear GOD, please let me spent more time with my mum. my strength. my bestest friend. =)
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
ken lee..
I watched this video before but it reminds me again when carly smithson sang the song(original version) just now on American Idol. really funny! make me smile again. =)
emotional situation
fuck it. i can't stand this bastard anymore.
he's so NOT matured and so FUCKING annoying!
i feel like i want to quit the job cuz i can't even look at his face. merosakkan my mood every single day! but what for nk quit the job just because of him kan? i like the job. shit la!
just because i ignore him, he wants to ignore me jugak la. cuz he sms me every day and i tak layan. what for nk nk layan org yg main2kan org? then nk balas dendam ke ape?! he treated me like sampah! imagine he asked me to take the product myself from the store. kat tempat yg gelap/berhabuk and the box is not even opened yet. and i have to find a knife and open it myself dengan lipas berlari2 kluar. it's your job la mangkuk!
kerek mcm babi! then he said " sape yg kerek skrg?". pegi mampus la wei! tak puas hati pulak. dh ade awek nk menggatal. tak layan, emo! what kind of person is he ar?
urrgh tension! thank god i'm not in the same department. thank god jugak ade senior chemist yg understanding. he said just ask him to get it from the store if i want anything.
*sigh*. cant beleive ppl can behave like this.
go to HELL la fucker. pfft.
he's so NOT matured and so FUCKING annoying!
i feel like i want to quit the job cuz i can't even look at his face. merosakkan my mood every single day! but what for nk quit the job just because of him kan? i like the job. shit la!
just because i ignore him, he wants to ignore me jugak la. cuz he sms me every day and i tak layan. what for nk nk layan org yg main2kan org? then nk balas dendam ke ape?! he treated me like sampah! imagine he asked me to take the product myself from the store. kat tempat yg gelap/berhabuk and the box is not even opened yet. and i have to find a knife and open it myself dengan lipas berlari2 kluar. it's your job la mangkuk!
kerek mcm babi! then he said " sape yg kerek skrg?". pegi mampus la wei! tak puas hati pulak. dh ade awek nk menggatal. tak layan, emo! what kind of person is he ar?
urrgh tension! thank god i'm not in the same department. thank god jugak ade senior chemist yg understanding. he said just ask him to get it from the store if i want anything.
*sigh*. cant beleive ppl can behave like this.
go to HELL la fucker. pfft.
Monday, April 7, 2008
He simply make our day
oh my god. i met jericho in person! for those yg xtau, Jericho is the gorgeous phillipino actor. known from the famous series 'Pangako Sayo'.
i was meeting up with my utm friends at 'ole-ole bali' @ sunway pyramid when suddenly we saw him and we got super duper excited. gile obvious pulak tuh. so we actually took the chance to approach him and took pictures! well actually we asked the waitress to ask his permission and she helped us took the pictures. thanx akak! so it's now officially in our friendster photos and mobile phone wallpapers. LOL.
i was meeting up with my utm friends at 'ole-ole bali' @ sunway pyramid when suddenly we saw him and we got super duper excited. gile obvious pulak tuh. so we actually took the chance to approach him and took pictures! well actually we asked the waitress to ask his permission and she helped us took the pictures. thanx akak! so it's now officially in our friendster photos and mobile phone wallpapers. LOL.
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