omg.stop.

ah benci lah. semua pun sibok cite pasal kahwin. saje nk jealouskan la tu. diammaaah.

eceh. padahal aku yg pegi tanye2. aku yg pegi bace blog. aku yg pegi tgk gamba. sape suruuuuuh?!!

adeeei. parah dah nie.

nak jugaaaak jadi bini orang. lepas tu seteeeel. takyah pikir2 dah. tenaaaang. ade teman sentiasa. ade support sentiasa. buat keje pun leh focus. eceh. ye kee?confident dividen je.

ade orang kate, ktorg ni cepat sangat. belum pape dh gedebak gedebuk pkir pasal nk kahwin. tapi kalau dh rase it's the right one, salah ke kalau nk disatukan dengan keredhaanNya? 'bercinta lepas kahwin tu lagi bahagiaaa', bak kate ruby aka mrs jerry. yelah, name pun dihalalkan. mesti ah lagi berkat.

ok dah dah. kalau dia tau ni mesti dia marah. pkir macam2 je. padahal orang tu tgh berusaha nk carik duit. tapi sape suruh mention it in the first place?. ha ha sape yg salah.

adakah ini yg dinamakan sudah sampai seru?






i love it when u always make me laugh. :)

mal's birthday.

the usuals did a bbq nite yesterday at my place (as usual) to celebrate mal's birthday. although birthday sebenar is actually tomorrow. lalala.

and my hse now dh ade name baru. bilik gerakan the usuals. sbb activity the usuals mostly buat at my hse. lol.

selamat hari jadi akmal salleh.

sesungguhnya kita smue dh meningkat tua. tahun depan dah 25. eeeeeeeee scaryyyyyyyy.

persahabatan.

post ini mungkin diilhamkan dari blog seseorang. tapi post ini bukan bertujuan utk dikaitkan dengan apa-apa yg berlaku(mungkin sikit :P). post ini juga bukan bertujuan meng-follow blog seseorang itu. post ini datang dari hati. jadi ampun maaf kalau anda rase saya salah.


friendship is something yg saya sgt hargai. saya suke berkawan. saya berkawan dengan smue orang. unless org itu yg tak hingin nk kwn ngn saya. saya tak kesah. selama saya hidup, bermacam2 kawan saya jumpa. for me, kt tak sepatutnya memilih utk berkawan. mcm org cun dgn org cun je. org alim warak ngn org alim warak je. org educated ngn org educated je.

cuma mungkin susah utk kt memahami orang yg tak sekepala dgn kita. jadi kite memilih utk tidak berkawan dgn mereka. tapi manusia macam2 ragam. kt rase kt susah nk faham orang. tp cube fikir, org pun susah nk faham kita sbnrnye.

semakin kt tua, semakin kt rase persahabatan yg ade bersama kwn2 rapat kita semakin jauh. its about time maybe, at this age, semua orang dah mula melangkah ke hidup baru. smue dh ade responsibilities masing2. smue akan ada hidup masing2. tp saya percaya, persahabatan itu boleh kekal kalau berusaha dan kt mahu ia kekal. cume we need to figure out how.

saya pernah ade kawan2 rapat yg mana bila mereka ade kekasih, mereka lupakan saya. lupakan kawan2. ade juga yang pernah end up dgn lelaki yg saya pernah suke gile mase tu. saya sedih. saya marah. tapi disebabkan saya sayangkan persahabatan, saya make it work. saya maafkan mereka. saya cube memahami keadaan dan saya masih berkawan dgn mereka.

i dont really have a bestfriend. tapi i have a group of close friends yg saya sayang bangat. saya tak suka kawan2 saya sedih. saya tak suka kawan2 saya susah. saya selalu rasa nk tolong mereka sedaya upaya. saya cube tolong mana yg mampu. saya nak kawan2 saya juga happy. saya selalu doakan kawan2 saya. walaupun kadangkala mereka mengecewakan saya atau tak menghargai apa yg saya buat utk mereka.


to you and you(u know who u are), i hate to see u guys like this. i'm sure there's something that could make it work. ade orang kate lagi rapat kt dgn seseorang, lagi kuat dugaannya.

to tim, i miss u so much. aku rindu bebelan dan kesengalan ko. and how we always share our stories. mostly about families. cuz we understand each other rite? i hope ko tak lupe aku lagi.

to sitot, aku mmg kecik ati ngn ko sbb ko always busy with ur bf. takde time for us. tapi when i found out u're getting married soon and we talked on the phone, i can feel how happy u are. and i'm very very happy for u. finally ex roomate aku ni yg sgt susah to fall in love, jumpe dah 'the one' and akan dinikahkan tak lame lagi. kahwin aku nk meja VIP ok? :P

to all of u, semoga persahabatan kt kekal sampai bile2 ye. :)

awake.

"imagine walking at the mall, noticing a dress so beautiful u immediately fell in love with it. u want to buy but u're scared u might not need it, u might not wear it, takut tak mampu beli, takut membazir. u have this mixed up feelings, nak beli ke tak, but u really really adore it, u want it so bad. in the end, what the heck beli jelah. bcuz u just love it. "

"it's the same thing as ur feelings right now"



this is a simple yet great advice. glad i talked to you. i feel a lot better! thank you. :)

cuakness.

it freaks me out that suddenly i have all the feelings i never had before.

scared.

scared that i keep thinking about it.

scared that it might not happen the way i hope it would be.

scared that maybe i'm moving too fast.


i want it badly. i wanna have someone to always be my side. i wanna have a baby. i want my own family. i dont wanna go back to loneliness again.


i lost the one person i love the most. i cannot afford to lose one more.

not now.

oh God, pls pls pls make it work.




aaaa i miss my dad already..

500 days of summer.

cuuuuteeee movie. a unique, lain-dari-yg-lain romantic comedy film.

and my favorutite scene is the dancing part. i liikeeee..!

the weekend.

a fun weekend indeed.

had a small raya gathering with The Usuals on Saturday night. as we did every year since 2 years ago, wajib ambik gamba together gether with THE couch. only this year, ahli the usuals bertambah je. thanx syib and wan for joining us as well.

and oh, i so love this pic! :)

on Sunday afternoon, we went to Ili's wedding. a sweet purple and white theme colour wedding (my colour!), and she look gorgeous. met lots of high school friends there. congratulations on ur wedding, ili!

masters.

"memang at some point u akan rase nak give up and tak sanggup nk continue, but kene banyak bersabar because that is the challenge and the experience lah yang akan membentuk u in the future"


huaaaaaaaa. a little spontaneous motivation talk by the lecturers yesterday. agak membuka mata la. lagi2 kluar all their experiences stories during their masters and phd. damn their days were much more difficult. wonder how they did it. and kita nowadays still complaining with all the internet and everything. no wonder la my dad malas nk layan kalau mengadu susah, sbb time die lagiiiii susah.

rasa cuak pun ade jugak. i always wonder 'boleh ke aku buat master ni?'. time buat final year project degree pun dah stres gile nangis nangis nk terjun bangunan ape smue, apatah lagi masters. damn. that question slalu bermain2 kat kepala. tapi i think, if i can go thru that, i can go thru this kot(sedapkan hati).

but actually it's fun! susah tapi fun. exspecially if it is in the field of interest. thru my degree experience, rase macam penat lelah berhasil akirnya. bcuz i discover something and i learn A LOT. exploring new things ni sronok sbnrnye, mcm cite Mythbusters kat Discovery Channel tu. damn i wish i could be part of them. they make it look so easy and enjoyable. padahal kalau tak pakar mau tak pecah kepala pkir macamane nk solve.


some ppl work just for the sake of money(mostly kot). some ppl work for experience. some ppl work to explore more in their interest and learn something from the job.

i go for the third one.

tapi nk dpt job yg kite suke BAPAK SUSAH.

so my plan is, study dulu, explore dulu, then work in a personal care industry- learn some more for a few years then do my own thing-bukak business ke ape. woohooo. cita2 tinggi aje. 1st step pun blum lepas. pffft.

apapepun..

dear GOD, please be near me all the time so i can go thru all this sucessfully. :)


berita terkini: my office @ enstek is gonna move to KL soon. how soon is soon, wallahualam.

nasi ayam.

"sedap tak nasi ayam mak?"

"sedaaaap.."

"jumpe dah mak kaaan..happy tak?"

"segaaaan..."

"takpelah..dah jumpe...:)"

":)"

it was meet-the-boyfriend parent! sumpah segan nak mampos. and thanx to our fren yg lagi menyegankan diriku (wan, kalau ko bace ni mesti ko gelak2 kan? diammaaah.). dh mcm rombongan merisik dah dgn baju melayu, baju kurung bagai. 1st time kot, confirmla segan.

his mum sangatlaaaa baaaaik. mcm anaknye juge. and i'm impressed with his family, yg duduk rumah kecik je, tak mewah tak ape, tapi dah macam sempurna. happy. i realize, of course duit tu mmg amat penting untuk keperluan hidup tapi money can't buy happiness. kebahagiaan tu yg patut kt cari. kaya raya successfull tapi tak happy buatpe kan.

tp still kene la jugak carik duit. be prepared utk kehidupan seterusnye. banyak rupenye duit nk pakai for the future. haruslah usaha supaya our lives tak susah nnti. mintak dimurahkan rezeki. heh heh heh.

"kalau ade duit skrg dah masuk meminang ke?"

"yelaa..mestilaaa.."


heh heh heh. gedik tak? pedulik ape aku. happy kot. :)


when it feels right, IT FEELS RIGHT.

tapi manusia hanya merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan.