"once you`re used to having someone in your life, you`d feel lost when one day, you`re on your own, you tend to find and take every single opportunity to search for another pengganti. it`s good to be single because it gives you the freedom to explore more about yourself, be independent, build personality and interests."

miracles

do u beleive in miracles?

i do.


these past few days my relative has been hospitalized for meningitis. last nite, she was confirmed brain dead. there was no heartbeat, zero response and the only thing that supported her was the machine. without the machine, she is dead.

so because the hospital need to follow some procedures, they were supposed to run some tests today, just to confirm and then off the machine.

her family has prepared for the pengebumian and everything. amazingly, after they off the machine, she's still breathing. she's breathing on her own. everyone was shocked. even the doctor.

although i'm not close to her (i rarely meet her,sedara jauh), i pray for her. hope everything's fine for her and her family.


i remember how it was with my mum. it was more or less the same situation. she was supported by the machine. it was awful.

two or three of my aunties and uncles thought that maybe i should just off the machine and let her go. i disagree with them but i didnt say anything. no matter what everyone said, i was still hoping my mum would open her eyes. i beleive something could happen. a miracle could happen.

on that day, i pray to GOD "if she still have a chance to live, let her live. if it's the time, take her then". there you go. that night, she died peacefully. Al fatihah..


mama.. hana rindu sangat kat mama. hana sedih sangat mama takde. tp hana kuat macam mama. if u're here and u watch me go through everything now, u would be so proud of me..

life is cruel

i realize something today. i feel so disturbed. so bothered. i think life is not fair.

people are cruel sometimes. but maybe it's just the way they are. sometimes it's not a bad thing to be cruel. sometimes it's human nature. although it hurts, i guess i have to bear with it. life IS cruel sometimes.

*sigh*

awful. awful feeling.

quotes

got this from a friend's FB notes. interesting quotes to share.


Life is a paradox. What you want, you don't get. What you get, you don't enjoy. What you enjoy is not permanent. What is permanent is boring. Paradoxical, but its meant to build the best in you.

The road to success is always under construction.

Prayer isn't an extra option nor is it a last resort when all other methods have failed. When man works, man works. But when man prays, God works.

Try not to become a man of success, but rather try to become a man of value.

Never take someone for granted. Hold every person close to your heart because you might wake up one day and realize you've lost a diamond while you were busy collecting stones.

When you run so fast to get somewhere, you miss the fun of getting there. Life is not a race so take it slower. Hear the music before the song is over.

You can't expect to hit the jackpot if you don't put a few nickels in the machine.

Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.

Good looking friends are hard to find. That's why you don't see me that often.

Sex is nature, and I believe in going along with nature.

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.

If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?

Gravitation cannot be held responsible for people falling in love.

i finally made my decision.

i'm gonna further my studies at UKM doing research on personal care products. i've always been interested in this industry. hopefully it's the right decision.

gonna start probably in the mid of december.

it's time for me to leave the company. now i have to figure out how to tell my boss. i feel guilty for leaving because the lab is lack of staffs. but i have to do it anyway. it's my future.