am i right?

why la i'm so worried about pursuing my masters?

i still have doubts whether this is the right decision. i dont know why i feel this way. maybe i think too much.

you see, i am very interested in product formulation. i have a dream that one day i might create my own product. but according to them (the experts), product formulation is just basics. not worth for masters program. so my proposal dah tak boleh pakai. i have to figure something else. tapi tak terfigure-figure sampai skrg. and i probably start in about 1 minggu lebih kot. register on 18th of this month. hoping la jugak start lmbt sket. boleh cuti lebih while still figuring out what to do on my project.

i ask a few of my friends yg buat master. they said it's normal that mase first sem still figuring out what to do. but still i dont feel comfortable not knowing what to do. at least i should have something and then start to discuss it with the lecturers later.

otak dh lame tak pakai kot. tu yg agak lembabs nk dpt idea tu. i've read articles, journals tp still blur. pfft. plus i think the basics of chemistry pun dah lupe. kene study balik ni. hoh back to study!

sometimes fikir balik. i dont wanna be a student anymore. i wanna be org yg berkerjaya(konon!). tp nk dptkan the work yg betul2 minat, super duper susah. and i can't wait. that's why i figure to do masters because at least i can learn to do what i'm interested in. takla tertunggu2 sampai dpt keje in that field baru nk blaja.

time is running out. i have a plan. my plan is, before i'm 30, i hope to be stable. i hope to be in a job that i love. i hope to be specialized in the field that i love. so if i wait until i got the job that i want, tak sempat kot. am i right? tell me i'm right plz.

i'm 23 now. going to be 24 next year. masters program probably 2 years maximum. bergantung pada kelajuan bekerja, bak kate Ruby. so i will be 25 by then. 5 more years to plan for the future. nk ade business lagi. hopefully before 30 dh start slowly la. hoh cita2 tinggi ni! iyo2 je aku ni. apapepun, i still got to have a job. nk carik duit gak beb. takde duit camne nk wat business. plus nk pay back my dad. bersusah payah kuar duit for me. hopefully dpt keje in a company yg buat personal care products la. if not into business pun, at least i'm in that area. i know i'm not that pandai in the business world, finance, invest whatever semue tu. but i'm learning.

see how time is so precious? hidup kene plan beb.

so back to the question. am i making the right decision?