Sunday, November 25, 2012

back to the future.

been thinking a lot about future lately. exciting yet scary at the same time.

since i'm so determined to finish my masters this semester (which should be end by march but depends on my crazy lecturer who always wants everything perfect and torture me with unnecessary jobs -__-), i'm starting to think of what kind of work/job should i do after that. having experience being in r&d industry and product development area for few years now, i learned a lot. one thing i learn is that apparently science is not important to business people. all they want is profit profit profit. fast fast fast. and it annoys me. hellooo, we're the scientist, we know when will the products be actually safe for the market and what kind of things should be added to improve. 

so yeah, i love r &d and product development and well just basically working in the lab. But, i don't like the nature of the work. it's depressing. i know it's probably the same thing for all companies who wants to make profit, but whatever. In terms of gaining experience, no problem with me. 

and then there's this sudden interest in me who wants to be a lecturer. i don't know why. i don't know how to teach but i just feel that all the 'ilmu' that i've got should be passed on to people. and i got a feeling that it's less depressing. i thinkkk lahhh.

with me getting married and all, of course i already started to think of marriage life. i think every woman would wanna cook for their husband, looks nice, getting pregnant, have kids etc. with all these in mind, how can i be in a profesional world and then going back home trying to do all this? almost impossible.

and so when i stumbled upon this blog , i thought to myself 'bestnyaaa jadi surirumah ni'. tak payah stress2 dgn boss or difficult people at work or due dates and whatever. this mother do a lot of experimenting at home, cooking, crafting, and making home made cosmetics/personal care! haha this one i'm so excited. i've always wanted to do my own soap and all tapi takde time. already berangan making my own body scrubs and sell them at bazaars. plus that would be an application of what i learn for my masters. (seriously sbnrnya sgt scary beli products kat luar tu, try to buy products as natural as possible k?) always wanted my own business tapi tak pandai business and dont know what to sell and where to start. maybe someday i'll start one so i can be more at home and spending time with my family. cewah berangan over!

berangan pun berangan jugak. but the thing is, money is still so important. no matter what, still have to find ways to have an income or extra income. mr fiance is not really strict of what i wanna be. he just wants me to do something that i'm happy about. 

oh well enough rambling. manusia merancang je kan. let's just wait and see what my future will be like. 

wish me luck! :)

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