Tuesday, December 25, 2012

of studies, wedding and just accepting things the way they are.

when i registered for masters, the seniors already warned me that if i work under my supervisor, my masters will be 4 years. right to the maximum limit. to the point where u can't extend anymore.

i didn't really believe them and i thought to myself, i can beat that. i can finish on time. or at least, extend for just the thesis writings.

i was definitely wrong. 

my supervisor is a very very particular person. dalam erti kata lain, CEREWET.  it's so hard to puaskan hati dia and it's driving me crazy!

for those of you yg tak pernah jadi postgraduate student, the moment when your supervisor said 'you can graduate now' is moment yg paling bahagia and paling susah sgt nk dgr. it's usually hard for supervisors to let their students go. and from what i've heard, supervisors who are graduates from US are the most difficult ones (because they had difficult times in the US) and my supervisor is one of them. big sigh!

i'm so tired when ppl keep asking me when will i finish, because the truth is, i don't know!

only GOD knows how many times i wanted to quit and move on. it's just too depressing. i dont wanna be sad and stress all the time. 

well i guess the only way is to just to accept. accept that i won't finish at the targeted time (i target on march 2013 then i'll be married and free!), accept that no matter what, it'll be worth it the end. insyaallah!



on another note, it's 3 months until the big day and i'm already feeling the excitement! :) and nervous at the same time. 

alhamdulillah so far preparation was smooth. me and syib had done the preparation slowly so we wont get stuck with last minute things. 

but of course, it gets annoying when family members have different opinions with what you have in mind. from the beginning, when we got the date, i already thought to myself, i'm just gonna accept whatever it is that they want and not be stressed out about unnecessary things. i already know that i'm not gonna have my dream wedding anyway. and what's important is the marriage. alhamdulillah so far everything works fine, i accepted whatever my parents want and they accepted what i want. 

so far.

there'll be a meeting with the extended family this weekend and i'm nervous about that. i'm sure there'll be some clashing of opinions here and there. and with my father's side of family, i always gets really annoyed with them.(oops).  i know it's not nice to feel that way too. oh well. 

syib is gonna have a meeting with his extended family too. he's all like 'cakap ok je, takyah pressure2, janji kahwin'. yeah i hope i will do that. 

anway, bought the ring yesterday! can't wait to wear it yeay! i'm not into jewelleries and all the expensive ones. so we got a very nice simple ring just enough for me. i love it because it looks so feminine on me. tee hee. :)

so far everything necessary booked. things to be finalized are cards and doorgifts. after that we're gonna have to pening kepala buying things for our new home. we've decided to stay at my dad's kondo at sungai besi. 



so there's two things i'm looking fwd to for 2013 (the same month too), to at least finish my labworks for my masters and to be start a new life with my other half.

and one thing i learned is to accept things the way they are then i'll be at peace. even if you dont achieve what you hope for. it's not easy but i won't stop trying. 

hope everything runs smoothly. insyaallah! praying for the best. :)