pelik tapi benar

haha. i cant beleive that i actually passed the test for the PTD-Pegawai Tadbir dan Diplomatik (SPA) post. i didnt really wanted the job actually. at that time, i main apply je. cuz my mum really menggalakkan myself to work with the kerajaan. didnt really care when i actually got the letter to take the test. mmg malas gile nk pegi exspecially when ppl say the test is damn hard but my parents asked me to so i just pegi la. and yes, it was damn hard. dahla kene wat 2 esei! hentam keromo abis la. the IQ test, wahhh mmg mencabar minda! anyway, dah lame dh pn. weeks ago. i just checked the results tadi and i kinda confident that i failed. but then it says:

Tahniah! Anda telah LULUS Peperiksaan Khas Memasuki Perkhidmatan Pegawai Tadbir dan Diplomatik yang telah diadakan pada 16/02/2008.

i'm like.."HAAA? biar betul!!"

siap key in 2,3 kali IC cuz tak percaye. haha! pelik gile. cuz mmg buat that test pn cam tah pape. so supposingly after this interview plak. see how la. =P

i thought i was gonna hurt him. but he did it first.

damn.

but we used each other. so fair and square la kan. pfft.

confuse

have u ever cry so hard that u yourself confuse of why exactly were u crying?

i did. and i'm still confuse.

it's a fucking weird feeling. u have no idea.

i wanted to share it with my frens but i can't. i don't even know how to express the feeling. it's confusing. it's like lonely+mad+tension kinda feeling. i don't know if i'm mad at myself, the situation or 'someone'. but i did feel so sad just for a stupid reason. pelik gile ok! ntah apela puncanya, tetibe je rase so fucking lonely and i feel like i takde kawan. i mean i have frens but not real frens that will always be there for me. i feel so alone even though ramai kwn. ntahla. confuse!!

wutever it is, i need my frens. and i miss my 'merepekianz gurls' back in utm. u guys never make me feel lonely. i was happy all the time! i guess sbb we were always together unlike now. and i'm not saying i'm not happy with my other frens. i sayang my tmn tun frens. i just hope we could lepak more often.

haih. pelik pelik. stupid jugak.

anyway, went out with fai just now. kinda mengurangkan kesedihan. so the ubat is,hang out la bersama kwn2. that works for me. LOL.

updates..

bulan ni genap 3 months i've worked at syncoates. everything's good so far. hopefully confirmla i kat situ. cuz after 3 months supposed dah confirm. naikla gaji ke rm2000. yeay! hopefully la kan. getting closer to the people there. not the mention, kat syncoates ni banyak 'buaya-buaya darat'. almaklumla kat situ brape orang je pompuan. and disebabkan i'm the only one who's single, asyik kene ngorat jela! dr budak kecik sampai la ke suami org anak dua ni( i call him 'org tua gatal'.ngahaha.) but fun la jugak melayan deaorg ni. i kinda love the attention. :P

i'm planning to buy a phone. a Sony Ericson phone. kinda interested with the k550i model. gonna buy it dlm masa terdekat.

i'm excited to watch Incubus live in Malaysia. at the Sunburst KL Music festival. kene simpan tenaga ni. rite puchi?

i'm sick but malas nk gi klinik. probably tommorow.

chow!