ctot's reception.

last wednesday night was a beautiful wedding night for a good friend of mine. we were crazy roommates back in UTM. i still remember the days where we used to study together, watch dvds together, karaoke together and late night lepaks at alif (famous mamak in skudai). along with other close UTM friends, we often went for sleepovers at her house back in JB while her parents are not in. i was sort of close with her family too (her dad exspecially cuz he's the dean of our faculty!) and being the pengapit of the night is a nice experience even though it was the first time for me for such a grand night!. funny how she was the one who was very choosy when it comes to men and she never really had a boyfriend before. her husband is her first and last love. and how cute it is that her husband is much shorter than her cuz she is naturaly very tall. lol.

so i pray for my fren's happiness, may they always be together forever. :)


tk sempat to take the pics as i was busy being the pengapit but i managed to take a few and curik from a fren.

make up session

all set!

the pelamin

comel kan? mcm kakak dgn adik. lol. he is such a nice men and very mature in person.

the girls

i stalk this man.

i knew about him some time ago. only recently that i started to read his blog and watch his videos. the fact that he is so strong despite his condition really touch my heart. and for some reasons, he reminds me of my late mother.

to fight cancer is not easy. to take care & to give support for a cancer patient is another thing.

al fatihah mas afzal & my dearest mama..








The Messenger of Allah (sallallahu alaihi wa-sallam) said: "The people most severely tested are the Prophets, then the righteous, then the next best and the next best. A man will be tested in accordance with the degree of his religious commitment; the stronger his religious commitment, the stronger his test."

[Tuhfat al-Ahwadhi (7:78)]

go(blog).

so i've created two new blogs! weeee. (semangat tk? :P)

nothing much actually but one blog is about wedding stuffs and the other is on my research.

since i'm getting married probably end of next year, i think i should already start with the preparations. and ppl keep reminding me about the venue & said 'dewan kene book awal!'. ok fine. so i start surveying the venue and secara tk langsung nye survey la jugak other wedding-related stuffs. i realize there's A LOT of things to do. so the blog is to make it easier for me to look at & share all the stuffs related and probably ppl too can share opinions & ideas! (am i too excited for this? is it too early? :P )

so the other blog is what i plan to share on my research and what i've learn along the way. there's a lot i've learnt so far, too much information that sometimes makes it hard for me to remember everything. so the blog is kinda my revision on everything i know and to link all the things/websites related to my project. it's inspired too from a professor that shares everything about his research on his blog.

so feel free to visit if u want!

http://socalledbridetobe.blogspot.com/

http://myedustory.blogspot.com/

calon.

so me & my lil bro met up with (so-called) papa's 'calon'.

i dont know how to react to this. i dont know why it bothers me anyway. mixed feelings. kejap sad, kejap okey. confusing.

yeah i always wanted him to meet someone so that ade org boleh teman him. jaga him. but bile dh nmpak mcm serious ke arah tu, there's a voice inside my head that says 'mane boleh!', 'nobody can replace my mum!' and 'i can take care of him!'. another voice will go 'she's not gonna be a good wife for u!' tapi bile pikir blk, apekejadah aku nk pkir sgt nih.

i guess i shouldn't be judging ppl based on appearance or 1st impressions. nobody is perfect. so i'm just gonna go positive about this for now.

a piece of advise from a friend. 'she won't be the same as ur mom. she won't. but at least, accept her as a friend pn dh ckup'. and my fiance ask me to give him a chance and always pray good things for him.

fiiiiineeeeeeeee.

tetibe jumpe video ni.






ok. kelakar wei.

risau.

i used to called my late mom a paranoid bcuz she worries about almost everything.

she worries about me driving alone at night.

she worries about me going to the shops alone (even if its just walking distance).

she worries when i go out with some random guys.

she worries when i'm sick. (she worries it'll be worse)

she worries about everything!

i sometimes thought that she was over protective and over caring.


now, i think i become just like her. i worry about almost everything. i think too much. and i become very sensitive.

and i hate it.

have u ever have that feeling when u care so much about people that u just want them to be happy and u dont want anything bad for them?

this is all so ridicolous and confusing.

crap. i feel old and i miss my mum. :(