note to self. note to all.

Sayang,
jangan kita susah-susah berusaha untuk membuatkan semua orang suka kita. Kerana kita juga tidak susah-susah berusaha untuk menyukai semua orang.

Serta,
jangan kita sungguh-sungguh cuba menjelaskan diri kita pada orang sehingga mereka faham seratus peratus. Kerana jika orang sungguh-sungguh cuba menjelaskan diri mereka pada kita pun, belum tentu kita faham seratus peratus.

We take things as it is. The keyword here is: redha. :)

- Wani Ardy (http://waniardy.com/blog/)

p/s: her songs best jugak.

layan la zee avi weih!

ok i fell in love with zee avi. right after i bought her cd. supeeeerrbb ah. layan thru youtube at first, then terus beli cd so that leh dgr dlm kete. mls nk download and burn. salute salute. layaaaan.

a little updates:

keje dh semakin busy. ade one project yg due this end of the month. so agak kelam kabut nk siapkan. best la jugak at the same time. buat 'kuih' je keje. ngahaha. as in cosmetic formulation. in this case, buat cream. malas2 lagi nk carik bilik sewa, plus hari2 ulang alik dh tak rase pape. rase mcm dekat je. kire2 pun actually belanja lebih kurang je since my car, viva, tak mkn minyak sgt pun. ulang alik ke menyewa sane, lebih kurang same je belanje actually. only maybe less penat la kot. and easier. tapi tah, takde perasaan pun. bukannye traffic jam pun. tgk camne la.

for the masters, most probably sambung la. tgh nk meng-apply pun. mcm best je. the ppl there pn sgt baik and my lecturer pun sangat la sporting dan happy go lucky. only now tgh searching for scholarships cuz tak sure ade geran ke tak. tajuk dh ade, nk buat proposal jelah.

oh, mocca is coming again! and i heard yuna is performing for the opening. october la tapi. interesting nk tgk yuna gak tu. cume the place agak tak interesting. tp mcm nk pegi jugak. hmm.

rase nk beli gitar and main gitar! serious dh lame tak main(mcm pndai sgt pun) since the strings of my dad's guitar dah putus. my brother punye pasal. gonna maybe buy the strings tak pun beli baru.

currently reading p.s. i love you. baru nk bace okeey. movie pn tak tgk lagi.

oh sudah puasa! Happy Ramadhan everyone! sorry kalau ade salah dan silap. Selamat Berpuasa!

oh my darling, honey bee
i have saved you and now that you're with me
we can make our own honey

Honey Bee- Zee Avi

a new job.

wash off formulation. emulsion. microspheres. vesicles charge. delivery systems. skin condition. penetration. surfactant.

..among the terms related to what i have to study and remember.

1st week of the job, i've been studying about the projects. turns out sangatla complicated rupenye the process of the cosmetics with the skin smue but sooo interesting. excited.

next week gonna start with a project. assisting an officer kat sane. will be a busy week. ade like 60 experiments kene buat complete with report smue in 3 weeks! ngahaha. hopefully tak penat sgt. with the driving ulang alik to enstek lagi. takdela jauh sgt actually tapi carik2 jugak la bilik sewa kat sane.

for the masters, gonna apply soon. at 1st, thought nk see how the job goes, experience doing the projects dlu then decide nk sambung ke tak. since the due date nk apply is 19th august, so my lecturer told me to ' apply je dulu..'. for now, agak interested la. bt see how it goes..

chaiyok chaiyok hana!

Laskar Pelangi

mimpi adalah kunci
untuk kita menaklukkan dunia
berlarilah tanpa lelah
sampai engkau meraihnya

laskar pelangi takkan terikat waktu
bebaskan mimpimu di angkasa
warnai bintang di jiwa

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah syurga
bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia selamanya

cinta kepada hidup
memberikan senyuman abadi
walau hidup kadang tak adil
tapi cinta lengkapi kita

laskar pelangi takkan terikat waktu
jangan berhenti mewarnai
jutaan mimpi di bumi

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah syurga
bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia selamanya

laskar pelangi takkan terikat waktu

a nice motivation song by Nidji. i likeeeee. although this song has been a while, baru menghayati the song after watching the movie 'Laskar Pelangi'. an inspirational story. nice one. :)

perasaan.

i have a feeling that i can't even figure out why i feel that way. susah nk describe and even susah nk share it with ppl because it's hard to understand. sndiri pun confuse. and it hurts to be confuse. but what i know is, it relates with my mum and the relationship i am in at the moment.

yes i am in a relationship. but before i can say how happy i am, it scares the shit out of me. and nobody understands. i keep asking myself 'why the heck should i be scared when i'm suppossed to be happy?'. i can't help it. it comes and goes every now and then. and that scary feeling leads to sad feeling. pfft.

i think a lot more about my mum when i'm with him. in fact, i think i was stronger before. sekarang asik sensitif je and i cry more often just thinking about her. and now rase mcm senang je kecik hati with everyone. family, frens. is that normal?

my friend said 'maybe u nak ur mum tau u happy skrg but she's not there. sbb tu u terase'. maybe she's right. but i think that's not the thing. it's just that when i care and worry about him, knowing that he cares about me too, reminds me of how much me and my mum care for each other, how i took care of her and how i was scared she was gonna leave me back then. maybe i'm scared to care about someone because i dont want the same thing happen again,to lose the one i cared so much. it's awful, seriously.

i always pray before that i'll find someone almost like my mum. sort of jadi pengganti. the one who could be there when i need someone, the one where i can feel comfort and the one who could actually take care of me. i find it hard to beleive that i actually found that person. and that actually another thing that scares me. that maybe it might not turns out the way i imagine it would be. bad experiences too give bad imaginations. i've only known him for a few months and i already can see the future of me with him. and i couldn't find one thing bad about him. how scary is that?! i dont know if i feel this way sebab baru di ambang2 permulaan relationship ke ape. but serious s**t, takuuuuut.

*sigh* sape yg slalu dgr pasalku mengeluh pasal ni, sabar jela ye. can't help it. :P

i'm thankful actually. bersyukur. at least, now i have a reason to smile. but i'm struggling to put away rase takut tu. and just go with the floow. whatever happens pun, i guess i have to beleive that everything happens for a reason.

only GOD knows what's best for me.

"EVERYONE IS SO IN LOVE WITH BEING IN LOVE, THEY FORGET ABOUT WHO THEY’RE ACTUALLY “FALLING IN LOVE WITH.” STOP FORCING YOURSELF TO FALL IN LOVE WITH PEOPLE YOU BARELY KNOW. IF THE RIGHT PERSON COMES ALONG YOU WON’T HAVE TO TRY, EVERYTHING WILL JUST FALL INTO PLACE. AND IT’S OK TO BE A LITTLE BIT LONELY FOR NOW, IT’LL ALL BE WORTH IT IN THE END."

updates..

1) lang tengah island trip was fun. altho i think perhentian is better. untuk ketenangan, or for honeymoon ppl, lang tengah is the place. sgt peacefull. for snorkeling, perhentian is much better. made a few of new friends while on the trip. sukeee.


2) i've accepted the RA(research assistant) post at UTM branch @ enstek. which is kat area sepang-nilai sane. that branch is doing a lot about cosmetics and that's y i wanted to try. keje dlu then see how it goes. if it's really sebati dgn diri (eceh), most probably smbungla masters at the same place. now i'm just figuring out wether to stay there or ulang alik je. cuak jugak actually. i told my fren this..

" i takut la i buat salah decision lagi "

" alaa. u're young. u're allowed to make mistakes and learn from it. try je laaa."

" kadang2 i rase mcm loser gile takde direction. org lain, mcm u, dh tau dh nk pergi ke arah mane. direction u. pastu org lak kate i memilih keje. mmg i memilih pun. tp i rase i berhak ape memilih. "

"yelaa mesti la nak yg kt suke kan. the way i see it, u ade direction. u're just a bit confuse. normal la tu. i'm sure everything will be fine. sooner or later u'll find ur way"

aaah it's nice to have someone supportive. thanks babe!

so it's official. i'm gonna start work next month. august.

3) something else is official. but i'm not sure if i'm ready to tell so much about this. bcuz i'm so afraaaaaaaaaid. so happy yet sangaat takuuut. and since it happen, i think a lot more about my mother. aneh. xtau knape.

4) sue, my dearie UTM friend is going back to Sabah for good! sediiiih. we might not see her anymore. went for a so-called farewell outing and we did a photoshoot. last time take pics together la konon. thanx to our photographer, mr biys bugs, for the lovely pics!



banyak gile gamba cantek2. sukeeeeeeeee! :)


so i think that's it for now. later!