iftar with the usuals.

after so long tak jumpe together-gether, we meet again! we had our buka puasa at Manhattan Fish Market @ Ikano last sunday (seafood platteeeer sedaaaaap). did celebrate birthdays of the septemberians as well. happy birthday shaz, sue and fadhilah! i had fun, till we meet again for raye!




suddenly rindu gile babas kawan2 lame, matrix frens, work friends, semue2 la yg susah nk jumpe. rase mcm nk ajak smue skali dtg umah for raye. haha.

betul ke?

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


('get to know yourself better' @ quizbox.com)

fynn jamal.

another awesome poetess.

told u i'm into poetry songs now. (terime kasih ijan & katak sbb pengaruh aku. tak pasal2 aku layan puisi pulak. pasni kt tgk deaorg perform eh). fynn jamal & wani ardy terbaaaaaaik.





"dunia memang kejam, dunia macam-macam"

"siapa kita itu kita, cinta saja jiwa kita, kalau mereka tak suka, pergi mampos tak apa"



deep gile minah ni.

rindu.

tibe2 terdetik,

mcamane ye papaku nnti? bile smue dh kahwin, dh kluar rumah, living our own lives. sape nk jage die? kesian die sorang2. :(

ble pkir pasal ni, mulelah teringat pesan arwah mama dlu.

"Jaga papa tu kalau mama takde, tengok2kan abang, ozair."

dlu slalu menyampah bile mama cakap mcm ni. mcm dh confirm takkan lame. tp smemangnye die lebih tahu yg die takkan lame. sbb tu die pesan awal2. tapi hana buat2 tak dgr. sbb takleh terime. takleh terime dan taknak terime kenyataan yg mmg mama takkan lame. in denial. mase tu pkir, mama akan hidup lame sampai tue, sampai tgk hana berjaye, kahwin etc. kate pkir positif kaaan.

sedih bile teringat. rase mcm hana tak buat ape yg mama suruh buat. rase mcm hana tak mampu nk buat semue. rase mcm hana x dpt jlnkan tanggungjawab.

kdg2 boleh rase marah dgn tuhan. 'Kenape amik die dulu?', 'Kenapa tak amik saye dulu?'. tak suke takde mak. tak best. lagi2 sorang pompuan. tapi kene faham, takdir tuhan kan. everything happens for a reason. maybe nie care Tuhan untk jadikan myself lebih kuat, lebih matang, lebih sabar, lebih responsible, lebih appreciate orang2 yg tersayang.

rindu mama bulan2 puasa ni. rindu suara mama mengaji. rindu cium tangan mama. rindu dengar suara mama membebel membazir beli barang banyak sgt kat pasar ramadhan. rindduuuu.

sekarang hana yg slalu membebel. pfft. dh jadi mcm mama dh ni. scary. tp dh fhm what u've been through all this time. slowly understands what it's like to be a mother, walaupun tak jadi ibu lagi. banyak sgt pengorbanan, mkn dalam. patutlah syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu.

am still trying to give my best. rase mcm nk suruh papa kahwin. at least i know, later on, ade jugak orang jage papa sampai tue. and hopefully he has a chance to be happy again. :)

hopefully saye juge happy. :)


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Dalam suatu riwayat dikatakan bahwa orang-orang yang telah meninggal, mereka datang setiap Jumaat pada bulan Ramadhan. Mereka berdiri dan masing-masing mereka memanggil dengan suara sedih dan menangis:

“Wahai keluargaku, wahai anak-anakku, wahai kerabatku, sayangi aku dengan sesuatu semoga Allah menyayangimu. Ingatlah kami, jangan lupakan kami dengan doa. Sayangi kami dan keterasingan kami. Kami telah diabadikan di penjara yang sempit, kesedihan dan penderitaan yang lama masanya. Maka sayangi kami, jangan bakhil kepada kami dengan doa dan sedekah untuk kami. Semoga Allah menyayangi kita sebelum kalian seperti kami.


Al-fatihah utk mama. Semoge dikurangkan penderitaanye dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 mulia. Amin..

musim kahwin ke ape?

nowadays, semua orang dah kahwin, nak kahwin or talking about kahwin. musim kahwin ke ape?!

a lot of my friends pun dah in the categories dah. munie is getting married january. aniem is planning to get married next year around april. shishi baru bertunang. ruby dah happily married, dh thinking of babies dh kot. my coursemates mmg dh ramai yg kahwin or nak kahwin. my closest niece, sofia just got engaged. and she's one year younger than me! aaaarghh ape smue nk kahwin ni?! tetibe rase jealous yang amat. boleh?

terus sms him "smue dh nak kahwin. nk kahwin jugaaaaak"

and he replied "insyaallah. doa syib murah rezeki, leh kahwin cepat :)"

ngahahaha. gatal gileee..

mmg tak ah. stabil pun tak. confirm ah lambat lagi.


i did the 'what date will u get married' quiz thingy kat facebook and guess what did i get?

NOV 25 2009.

muahahaha. tak bleh blah.

and the weird thing is, in his English class, the lecturer made an example of a sentence that said 'syib will get married in 3 months' which is..NOVEMBER! kebetulan la pulak kan. pfft. apekah petandanye itu? wallahualam.

scary je. dulu i was like "haa kahwin?! mudenye kahwin? resposibilites?! gile ah!". now it's like totally the opposite. i guess it comes with the age kot. or sbb mcm rase he's the right one. ke sbb tgk ramai sgt orang my age dh kahwin ni. haha. wallahualam.

dah dah. focus pada bende yg harus didulukan. study, career. jangan pikir kahwin. ur time will come, hana. insyaallah.

p/s: saye rase gambar ini sangat sweeeet.

15malaysia.com

15 cool short films from 15 cool filmmakers (promote pulak). looking fwd for the rest.

suddenly i'm into poetry songs

all because of an awesome indie musician, wani ardy. it's amazing how she could make a good song about LAMPU JALAN. sangat unik.

LAMPU JALAN

Banyak sudah
kedai lampu
aku masuk

Jika ada
yang berkenan
ku beli, ku bawa pulang

Tapi rata-rata
tidak tahan lama
fius terbakar, mentol pecah, wayarnya rosak

Kadang tiada apa-apa
cuma tiba masa
ia tidak sepadan dengan ruang dalaman

Hingga suatu malam
aku lihat dia
yang selama ini memang di situ
lain dari lampu yang lain-
bukan untuk dibeli,
bukan untuk dibawa pulang
aku mahu capai namun tidak sampai
tinggi, teguh, silaunya hebat
si lampu jalan

Blogku je ke ade problem? nape xleh edit and insert picture? grr.