five.

five days to go! 

:)

me and syib were talking last night about how finally the day is arriving after 2 years plus of waiting. that period of time really makes us mature and understand and love each other more. we cried, we laughed together. :)

alhamdulillah, all the major preparations settled. am so blessed with my aunties, uncles, cousins, friends, my dad, my brothers, sis in law and my nda for helping out and giving out ideas for the doorgifts, pelamin etc. making me feel bad for thinking that nobody really cares about me when truth is, there's many of them who cares. 

terharu pulak rasa.

there's a hikmah for everything. nda has helped a lot too. was always wondering how it'll be like preparing the wedding without a mother. thank god i have nda and my aunties for making me feel i still have that motherly care. 

hope everything turns out well. my only concern is that guests will feel comfortable and enjoy the wedding walaupun tak seberapa. and what's important is that everyone's happy. semoga majlis diberkati and our marriage also diberkati Allah. Amiiinnnnn. :)

bunohan.

malam dominasi bunohan di ffm 25

i'm so proud of bunohan! and songlap too.

i know a lot of us are still sceptical about the quality of malaysian movies but i'm still a supporter yo! there still are quality malaysian movies out there, although tak banyak. it's just that majority of malaysian are not interested to watch these kind of movies for god knows why. what to do, the market is like that. the market is more on relaxing comedy (nonsense most of the time) and rempit movies. pity the movie makers.

when i first know about the movie, i immediately want to watch it. why? because it has all the handsome and talented actors! lol. but of course because the story looks interesting. i like to watch movies lain dari yang lain.

come on, faizal hussein, one of the most famous heroes some time ago. zahiril adzim and bront palarae have always been my favourite actors. for me they are the talented ones that deserve to get recognitions.

although the movie is sooo heavy and soo confusing. but i love it. it has all the uniqueness of malaysian culture   and it's not typical. we can see that the production team and the actors put a lot of effort on this one.

so congratulations faizal hussein for pelakon lelaki terbaik (woohoo finally!) and bunohan for filem terbaik among other awards they've won on FFM 25.

songlap was an amazing movie too. i actually cried watching it. lol. syafiq naswip deserves the supporing actor award. what a talent.

both great movies i love. i hope malaysians produce more of these kind of movies. chaiyok!

1 month

Almost 1 month already to the big day!

phew time flies so fast.

starting to get busy settling things for the wedding and the pindah rumah and the 'settle work before cuti'. :P

alhamdulillah we just bought a bedroom set for our new home. will be delivered in 2 weeks time. other than maybe washing machine, we're planning on buying other things later. or wait and see what presents will we receive (hint hint).

phew so much belanja for a big day! even though we try to minimize our spending on the wedding, sometimes ter-over limit jugak. well i did, not syib haha. syib's side is very minimal like that. oh well, girls always gets excited over these things right? but anyway, i'm happy of the way i spent (and my dad's :p). try not to make ridicolous spending and make every money spent worth it. simpan lebih for our new home and honeymoons! note the 's'. hehehe. we were so excited we already have so many travelling plans after marriage! ntah bila nk pegi pun taktau.

will be doing my dresses fittings next weekend. weee~~. can't wait to see how my dresses look like. i trust my designer and so far, she has been giving me good service. alhamdulillah for that. mandi bunga/spa-ing appointment on 16th. doorgifts decorations to be finalised, diy mini pelamin/hantaran deco items to be bought, final meetings with the family for the event and small2 things that just need to be completed.  and oh, nikah registrations! and all the pindah2 barang to the new home. march is gonna be a busy month but alhamdulillah everything smooth so far.  hope everything dipermudahkan. aminnn!

anyway, another #theusualsttdi clan got married. congratulations puchi and adam! may u both have a happy marriage until jannah. :)

                                         

                                 

p/s: #theusualsttdi members just got bigger and bigger. soon, we're gonna need the whole restaurant booked for our usual gathering. lols.

worriers.

being a researcher, i developed a big habit of making google my bestfriend. everything that i don't understand or i'm curious about, i will google it and amazingly there will be answers! i believe everything must be based on facts. i googled like literally EVERYTHING. 

so since i have this chronic attitude of worrying too much (like really really too much sometimes!), i googled if these symptoms is some kind of sickness which could make my life worse.

and so these are the terms that i found: worrier and anxiety disorder.

turns out i'm not the only one. yeay!

check out these links if you have same symptoms as i have :P

9-steps-to-end-chronic-worrying
generalized anxiety disorder

some of the points:

'Worriers tend to be overutilizers of the health care system, meaning they see their doctor for just about every ache and pain' (haha this is so true!)

"Most people with the disorder report that they have been anxious for as long as they can remember. GAD occurs somewhat more often in women than in men" (u-huh)

"Even when aware that their worries or fears are stronger than needed, a person with GAD still has difficulty controlling them" (u-huh)

"Each individual needs to understand what causes their anxiety or what it is related to,"  "If you dig deep enough and go back to the early bases, it goes away because you have gotten to its roots."

and the statement that i love the most:

"Worriers are actually good at handling real problems."

a-ha!

so it's not really a bad thing right? :p

manusia.

i'm the kind of person who hates to hate ppl. (get it?)

like tak payah la nk benci benci sgt. musuh-musuh sgt.

i believe everyone has their own kind of behaviour whether it's good or bad. it all depends on how they were brought up , their experiences and their surroundings or their circle of friends/ppl. tak boleh nk judge sangat. manusia mcm2 ragam yg kadang-kadang tak masuk akal. drives you crazy but i guess at the end of the day, kena belajar accept.

tapi kalau dah org constantly buat something bad kat kt, tak tahan jugak wei.

i'm the type yg susah sangat nk marah or kecik hati, but once someone pissed me off, susah nak lupa & let go. i can forgive but it's hard to forget.

like once when i'm in uni during my degree years, i was pissed off at this one guy and i started blurt out every single word yang tak baik dlm dunia ni (over) because i was just really really angry. i remember saying 'saya tak halalkan smue rezeki awak'. and then i never talk to him ever again.

like my ex-bf trying to make friends with me back, i couldn't do it because i can still remember the bad things he has done to me. so i never talk to him ever again too.

tapi bila jadi bende-bende mcm ni. i always remember the saying ' kesalahan sesama manusia ni manusia je yg boleh ampunkan'. can u imagine dying and then susah mati sbb mak tak ampunkan dosa anak. (ok ni pengaruh drama spektra).

u know what i mean.

'biar org buat kita, jgn kita buat org'

oh well. i guess we all make mistakes.

but...

i'm still contemplating whether to invite this one person to my wedding or not because i'm still annoyed.

k bye.

the power of social media.

a lot of social media sites nowadays. facebook, twitter, instagram, pinterest, myspace, tumblr. macam2 lagi lah. you name it.

it all has become a big part of our lives. paling utama facebook. like you almost cannot NOT have it.

although it's fun to interact with ppl and it somehow brings ppl together but it's getting scarier and scarier.

we often make them as a way to let go of our feelings. luahan perasaan. sometimes 'attention-seeker'-ish. especially kalau kat twitter tu. womens especially. macam2 complain and luahkan. perempuan kan. mmg dh naluri suka luahkan perasaan & wants a lil bit of attention.

that includes me.

i always remind myself 'kalau emosi jangan post anything on media'. but sometimes i failed.

after dh posted something, hours after that, i realize, oh shoot, did i just mention my problems to the whole world?

a few times dah i feel like i should shut down from all the social media. tenang sikit. but it's not easy. see how it already becomes part of our lives? sad but true.

seriously kdg2 tengok post org, gambar org, mesti ada perasaan envy, menyampah, annoyed, and punca segala pe-menyumpat-an. true right?

but we have to admit it. it's the way we're updated with our friends and families activities nowadays. at least we know this friend just delivered a baby. this friend just celebrated his/her graduation and so on.

nevertheless, i still love them because it helps us to share informations and most important, shopping!

lol

we're updated with all these new clothes or shawls or any items then immediately nak beli. so dangerous but i'm addicted to online shopping already. :)

i think that's one of the reason why it's holding me back from shutting down from the social media. boleh?

happy new year!

It's 2013 already!

Time flies so fast. 2012 has been challenging for me. I've gone through difficult situations. I can say that i suffer from a very mild depression. Not many people understand this but i'm still thankful to have people close to me especially my soon to be husband bcuz he's very understanding and supportive. I dont know what would i do without him. 

But all those things really teaches me to be more patience and bersyukur. It's hard but it's a damn good lesson. Everything happens for a reason huh?

Hoping for a better year this year and looking fwd for march! ;)

Happy new year folks!