a week trip to pd and kuantan was fun. first, i went to seremban to meet up with tim and then off to PD. we just went there to hang out for a while and sort of share our problems which is more or less the same. ok, her problems is much more complicated. nuff said. and then last minute plan, i went to kuantan to hang out with my cousins and also my auntie and uncle who lives there. the plan was actually about 3 days but i get so lazy to come home so i stayed there for almost a week.

conclusion:
air laut + pantai + air terjun = ketenangan
(even if you just sit there and do nothing)

jealousy

i just found out about this. dh lame tak follow gossips. oh david cook ku!

am i right?

why la i'm so worried about pursuing my masters?

i still have doubts whether this is the right decision. i dont know why i feel this way. maybe i think too much.

you see, i am very interested in product formulation. i have a dream that one day i might create my own product. but according to them (the experts), product formulation is just basics. not worth for masters program. so my proposal dah tak boleh pakai. i have to figure something else. tapi tak terfigure-figure sampai skrg. and i probably start in about 1 minggu lebih kot. register on 18th of this month. hoping la jugak start lmbt sket. boleh cuti lebih while still figuring out what to do on my project.

i ask a few of my friends yg buat master. they said it's normal that mase first sem still figuring out what to do. but still i dont feel comfortable not knowing what to do. at least i should have something and then start to discuss it with the lecturers later.

otak dh lame tak pakai kot. tu yg agak lembabs nk dpt idea tu. i've read articles, journals tp still blur. pfft. plus i think the basics of chemistry pun dah lupe. kene study balik ni. hoh back to study!

sometimes fikir balik. i dont wanna be a student anymore. i wanna be org yg berkerjaya(konon!). tp nk dptkan the work yg betul2 minat, super duper susah. and i can't wait. that's why i figure to do masters because at least i can learn to do what i'm interested in. takla tertunggu2 sampai dpt keje in that field baru nk blaja.

time is running out. i have a plan. my plan is, before i'm 30, i hope to be stable. i hope to be in a job that i love. i hope to be specialized in the field that i love. so if i wait until i got the job that i want, tak sempat kot. am i right? tell me i'm right plz.

i'm 23 now. going to be 24 next year. masters program probably 2 years maximum. bergantung pada kelajuan bekerja, bak kate Ruby. so i will be 25 by then. 5 more years to plan for the future. nk ade business lagi. hopefully before 30 dh start slowly la. hoh cita2 tinggi ni! iyo2 je aku ni. apapepun, i still got to have a job. nk carik duit gak beb. takde duit camne nk wat business. plus nk pay back my dad. bersusah payah kuar duit for me. hopefully dpt keje in a company yg buat personal care products la. if not into business pun, at least i'm in that area. i know i'm not that pandai in the business world, finance, invest whatever semue tu. but i'm learning.

see how time is so precious? hidup kene plan beb.

so back to the question. am i making the right decision?

goodbye Syncoates. :(

yesterday was my last day working at Syncoates. it's been a great experience working there as all the ppl there was very very nice. mr lim, bos paling baik di dunia. hariz and hatta, my fellow seniors in the R&D team, they helped me a lot. although bermacam krisis but i had so much fun working with them. all the ppl there is like a family to me. i'm sure gonna miss them. yang terharunye siap ade yg bagi hadiah. didn't know i meant that much to them. a lot of memories there for sure. sedih. :(



the ladies yg sentiasa kepoh (some of them)


and these guys. teman lepak minum, teman lunch, teman gosip, teman everything.


Hariz, the closest one i think. talk and share with him a lot. very the abang-ness.


Hatta, the very philosophical one. ask him anything, kuarlah bermcm falsafah. annoying sometimes.


shahrul, the one yg slalu teruja ngn politik. info politics smue dtg dr dia. org PAS ni.


arohim, paling ceria dia ni. very friendly. suke katai org. yes,i'm always the victim.


*sigh*

:(

ah well, gonna start a new life soon. wish me luck!

"once you`re used to having someone in your life, you`d feel lost when one day, you`re on your own, you tend to find and take every single opportunity to search for another pengganti. it`s good to be single because it gives you the freedom to explore more about yourself, be independent, build personality and interests."

miracles

do u beleive in miracles?

i do.


these past few days my relative has been hospitalized for meningitis. last nite, she was confirmed brain dead. there was no heartbeat, zero response and the only thing that supported her was the machine. without the machine, she is dead.

so because the hospital need to follow some procedures, they were supposed to run some tests today, just to confirm and then off the machine.

her family has prepared for the pengebumian and everything. amazingly, after they off the machine, she's still breathing. she's breathing on her own. everyone was shocked. even the doctor.

although i'm not close to her (i rarely meet her,sedara jauh), i pray for her. hope everything's fine for her and her family.


i remember how it was with my mum. it was more or less the same situation. she was supported by the machine. it was awful.

two or three of my aunties and uncles thought that maybe i should just off the machine and let her go. i disagree with them but i didnt say anything. no matter what everyone said, i was still hoping my mum would open her eyes. i beleive something could happen. a miracle could happen.

on that day, i pray to GOD "if she still have a chance to live, let her live. if it's the time, take her then". there you go. that night, she died peacefully. Al fatihah..


mama.. hana rindu sangat kat mama. hana sedih sangat mama takde. tp hana kuat macam mama. if u're here and u watch me go through everything now, u would be so proud of me..

life is cruel

i realize something today. i feel so disturbed. so bothered. i think life is not fair.

people are cruel sometimes. but maybe it's just the way they are. sometimes it's not a bad thing to be cruel. sometimes it's human nature. although it hurts, i guess i have to bear with it. life IS cruel sometimes.

*sigh*

awful. awful feeling.

quotes

got this from a friend's FB notes. interesting quotes to share.


Life is a paradox. What you want, you don't get. What you get, you don't enjoy. What you enjoy is not permanent. What is permanent is boring. Paradoxical, but its meant to build the best in you.

The road to success is always under construction.

Prayer isn't an extra option nor is it a last resort when all other methods have failed. When man works, man works. But when man prays, God works.

Try not to become a man of success, but rather try to become a man of value.

Never take someone for granted. Hold every person close to your heart because you might wake up one day and realize you've lost a diamond while you were busy collecting stones.

When you run so fast to get somewhere, you miss the fun of getting there. Life is not a race so take it slower. Hear the music before the song is over.

You can't expect to hit the jackpot if you don't put a few nickels in the machine.

Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.

Good looking friends are hard to find. That's why you don't see me that often.

Sex is nature, and I believe in going along with nature.

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.

If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?

Gravitation cannot be held responsible for people falling in love.

i finally made my decision.

i'm gonna further my studies at UKM doing research on personal care products. i've always been interested in this industry. hopefully it's the right decision.

gonna start probably in the mid of december.

it's time for me to leave the company. now i have to figure out how to tell my boss. i feel guilty for leaving because the lab is lack of staffs. but i have to do it anyway. it's my future.

aktiviti minggu ini

saturday: bbq raya at my place with the usuals!




sunday: ruby's engagement (congrats babe!)



monday: makan2 at my place with my coursemates. i cook! (with a little help from my frens :P)




conclusion: sangat penat expecially with the cooking. i never cook for a whole lot of ppl. gatal kan? thank god my frens come and help. co-host bersame2. at the end of the day, sibuk kemas rumah all by myself. but i had so much fun hanging out with all my frens. sayang bangat kamu semua! :)

(more pics will be uploaded on my facebook/frenster)

it's not easy.

it's soo not easy.

and i'm still hoping. damn it, i'm still hoping.

pathetic. soo pathetic.

lagu yg comel. i like! :)

cant find the full song playlist. so silalah download kalau suka. mekaseh. :)



Jason Mraz & Colbie Caliet - Lucky

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fell the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

decisions

it's quite depressing that u put hope on something that u really really want but also knowing that the possibilities sangatla tipis.

sometimes what we really want didnt turn out to be a good thing after all.

so how do we know if it's really what we want?

decisions. confuse betul.

like in my case, i am so hoping to work in a company dealing with personal care products. specifically maybe in Unilever. but knowing that my qualifications is not good enough to be in that kind of big company, agak frustrating la jugak. menyesal pun ade. hmph.

and then this MPOB thing. i met up with the Timbalan Ketua Pengarah of MPOB(long story short, my dad's friend is a friend of her) and we talk about projects handled by them (they did a lot on personal care products and the place is so big and byk gile facilities. teruja!). and then she asked me to meet up with the Ketua Unit of the division yg buat bendalah ni. so i met up with her and we had a loooong chat. she's a very nice lady. sangat baik! so agak hoping la ade keje kosong. and she said "ooh we have enough researchers already. but if ade vacancy, i'll let u know. u can email me or u can just check online" then came up the question, "so what is your result?". "2nd class lower. sikiiit lagi nk upper". "ohh okey. but actually we prefer org yg ade 2nd degree. takut u tak boleh cope nnti. u know, org yg wat 2nd degree dh biase wat research. so bile keje, it wont be a problem. buat research ni u kene betul2 focus tau. we only guide u sikit2 je. u have to do it on ur own. independently. and what we do is not just the formulation. we have to come up with a new ingredients...the chemical bonding..bla bla bla bla..." and she goes on and on, showing all her projects and whatever. fuhh agak menjatuhkan sikit la confidence level gua.

i'm thinking, "shit. can i do this?" and then mcm tau2 je kan. "ohh i'm not gonna discourage u ke ape. i just nk bagitau u how doing research is all about". no wonder my friends that pursued masters said they have no life.

so since takde vacancy, the only option is to pursue masters and then apply a scholarship provided by MPOB. in a way, i'll be doing my research there jugak la.

although interested la jugak, tp cuak and tak confident sangat that i'll be able to do it. i'm worried that this end up not my thing. at the same time, i wanna work. i want an income. but i want a job that i enjoy doing it. i want a job of my interest.

*sigh* decisions decisions..

which way should i go?

i want something challenging but i'm scared i'm not gonna be happy. and i think being happy is so important in anything u do. the ppl around jugak. sumber2 motivasi nie.

ughhh. so i'm still confuse.

i so wanna be a sucessfull career woman but it's a looong looong way to go. i cant even make one simple decision. *sigh*

mixed feelings altogether.

bored with the job.

clueless of the future.

confused and worried with the decisions.

struggling with the life after what happened.

happy with the relationship.

sad with the feelings that's hard to go away.

lonely. verryy lonely.

Wishing u all Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Hana mintak ampun dan maaf zahir batin. Kalau ade yg tersalah kata, terguris hati yang tak sengaja, maafkanlah ye. Ppl make mistakes rite? I'll be raya-ing at kedah for the 1st day of raya. Will be going tomorrow morning. i'll be back here in KL 2nd day of raya. till then, enjoy!!

teh o ais crew!

after so long tak get together, the teh o ais crew finally meet up again. we had dinner/buka puasa at Italliannies@1 utama. we actually celebrated fadhilah's birthday too. happy birthday krok2! too bad eira is not around. the crew is not complete.

terkenang balik zaman matrik when we used to hang out with each other. ke mane2 pun berenam. susah senang bersama.(eceh!)we often order teh o ais when we hang out and that's how we got the title. haha. till we meet again!

moving on

how i wish life would be simple. mcm vending machine. usha2, tekan ape nak, terus dapat. easy huh? but reailitinye life's not like that. life is a gamble. we dont know what will happen. and we dont always get what we want. Tuhan yg menentukan. we have to face it no matter what.

what happened between me and 'him' is like what my fren said, 'minor heartbroken'. although mcm tak puas hati but i feel happy and glad that he's very profesional and we're still good frens like normal. i must say i was worried about the ackwardness that could've happen. turns out no ackwardness at all. i'm glad. :)

but despite still having good friendship with him and trying to throw the feelngs away, watching him constantly sms-ing and smiling (probably with his secret gf) make me sooo jelous. mcm nk pegi ckp "why dont u choose me?!". but nah, i wont do that. and my fellow cliques yg tak membantu jugak.

"kejap je pinjam 'abang' hang"

"pegilah teman 'abang' ko.."

i just keep quiet, thinking "oh how i wish he could be my 'abang'."

*sigh*

at least i still have him as a good fren. i feel happy. i'm glad i let him know. now i can just move on. back to 'hunting'!


maybe i should go after my dearest Brandon Boyd. LOL.

emo

i thought he could be the one. i thought he could replace my mum. whenever i think of my mum, i think of him too.

well, we dont always get what we want rite?

at least now i know the truth. i dont have to wonder anymore. it's over. finally.

i'll move on.

the night

Malam Lailatulkadar bermula malam ke 21
malam nya terang, damai, tidak terlalu sejuk/panas
matahari tak terik kerana dilindungi sayap malaikat (malaikat mempunyai 12,000 sayap)
malaikat seramai 70,000 akan memasuki rumah
Jibril akan masuk ke rumah dan memberi salam serta menyentuh orang yang sedang beribadat

Tanda tubuh disentuh jibril:
tubuh badan merasa gementar
tiba-tiba rasa shahdu dan tenang
tanpa disedari berlinang air mata


Keistimewaan lain yang berlaku pada malam Lailatul Qadar dinyatakan dalam ayat 4 yang menjelaskan bahawa malaikat dan roh turun pada malam itu dengan keizinan Tuhan. Yang dimaksudkan dengan `roh' ialah malaikat Jibrail dan ini pendapat jumhur ulama. Ia disebut secara khusus kerana kemuliannya. Ada pendapat lain menyatakan nabi Isa a.s turun untuk melihat umat dan menziarahi nabi Muhammas s.a.w. Ada juga pendapat menyatakan roh-roh orang yang mukmin turun untuk menziarahi keluarga-keluarga mereka. Ada pendapat satu lagi mentafsirkan kepada `Rahmat dari Allah.


I went for teraweh just now and suddenly rase sebak and i cried. somehow i feel like my mum is around. wallahualam.

tired.

i'm tired.

i wish things could be simple. macam budak2 dulu. nothing is complicated. straight forward.

ketakutan utk rase kehilangan is killing me. i'm not like this before. maybe because i just lost my mum. it's holding me back.

i have to be strong. come on hana. it is simple. u make it hard on yourself.

aja aja fighting!

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose

- Sarah Mclachlan

mama

i so need u rite now. but u're not here.

i can only share my problems with u. some i cannot share it with my frens or any other person cuz u're the only one who will understand. no matter what it is, u'll listen and u'll comfort me. i need that comfort. i need it so much.

i miss u so much mama. i wish u're still here with me.

i am so happy today. i can't stop smiling. :)

struggling

ppl may wonder how my life has been after what happened. to be honest, i've been struggling. physically and emotionally. now i have a lot of responsibilities. a lot of work to do. i have to be my mum. i have to take care of the family. i have to prepare meals for dinner (or beli je lauk :P , susah2 mkn luar je). i have to wash the clothes. i have to kemas the rumah. hoh macam2 la. now i know how it's like to be a mother. well, almost la kan.

now balik rumah rase sunyi sangat. normally i would watch tv with my mum at night. tgk drama sambil borak2. oh i miss that. i talk to my mum about almost everything. i dont talk much with my dad or my brothers. i mean, tak cite sangat la. slalu cite ngn my mum. whenever i have problems, i would talk to her. nk cite to my dad and bro, terase pelik pulak. and they never understand pun. biaselah. deaorg ni takde perasaan. buang mase je kalau cite pun.

but i'm okey. i didnt expect myself to be this strong pun. i'm proud of myself. but kalau teringat tu, breakdown jugak la kan. i think it's normal. i just need some time. i know i can get through this.

talking about responsibilities, i wonder how am i gonna be a wife kalau sekarang pun dah terkial2. how am i gonna be a mum? oh my god. gile scary. sure lagi byk tanggungjawab. i'm not gonna get married soon. or at least i think so. i dont think i'm ready yet.

the reason i started to think about this stuff is cuz it's the topic of the month at my office. haha. this few weeks tak abis2 cite pasal kawin, kawin, kawin. hanging out with the boys (cuz i'm the only girl there) is kinda interesting. byk blaja from them. yerla kan, most of them are already married pun. we share boys perspective and girls perspective. obviously, most of the time i dikalahkan la. duh! but they're the best cliques ever. :)

sharing their experiences make me realize that marriage needs a lot of patience. cuz banyak gile la responsibilities kan. different ppl, different experience. i think everyone's struggling in their marriage. but it works anyway and that what makes it interesting. my idea of getting married is to be with someone u love every single day. u always feel someone is there for u. :)

i guess kalau dh strugling sekarang, i'll be better in the future. a good practise la jugak kan. for now, i have to focus on my current responsibilities. ugghh. i just hate that word.

mocca was awesome!

went to the mocca's gig last nite with puchi. its an indonesian indie band by the way. they were awesome! and all the local indie bands were great too. i love the rhaman, estrella and also funky doryz. they were super cute! i had fun!

although tersangatla sakit badannnye cuz we were standing there from around 5.30 to around 10. letih! but i'm so happy! dh lame tak have fun mcm ni. i went to work today with a big smile on my face. ntahla knape i feel so happy. before this mcm asyik emo je la kan. terkenangkan arwah and everything. my cliques pun mcm pelik je tgk. haha! maybe because all the songs yesterday was so happy-happy one. put me in a happy mood too la. :)

oh just listen to them.

I MISS U SO MUCH

Pertama kali aku tergugah
Dalam setiap kata yang kau ucap
Bila malam tlah datang
Terkadang ingin ku tulis semua perasaan

Kata orang rindu itu indah
Namun bagiku ini menyiksa
Sejenak ku fikirkan untuk ku benci saja dirimu
Namun sulit ku membenci

Pejamkan mata bila kuingin bernafas lega
Dalam anganku aku berada disatu persimpangan jalan yang sulit kupilih

Ku peluk semua indah hidupku
Hikmah yang ku rasa sangat tulus
Ada dan tiada cinta bagiku tak mengapa namun ada yang hilang separuh
diriku

*a song by melly goeslow called 'Bimbang' which is soo menggambarkan how i feel rite now. pfft.

oh my god.

i have a feeling that freaks me out.

i'm scared.

i dont wanna be hurt anymore.

ever since my mum was sick, he's been caring and supportive. until now, he take care of me. when i'm feeling down over my mum's death, he took me out and cheered me up. i really need that kind of comfort. he's been a realy good fren.

now i feel different. but i'm scared. exspecially the fact that he's 10 years older than me. how could we possibly be together? i dont wanna put hope for it. just go with the flow.

but seriously, i'm terified just thinking about it.

from my heart to yours..

mama
hana mintak maaf banyak2 kat mama
selame ni hana byk lawan cakap mama
hana takde niat nak lukakan hati mama
hana mmg jenis suke ikut pendirian sendiri
ma maafkanlah hana ye ma

mama
sebelum mama pergi, mama ade cakap
jage family klu mama takde
hana janji ma
walaupun hana tak sehebat mama
tp hana cube yg mampu

mama
ma cakap ma teringin nk tgk anak2 mama kawin
klu boleh hana pun nk mama ade mase hana kawin nanti
hana nak mama pilih baju pengantin hana
hana nak mama tgk siapa pilihan hati hana

mama
mamalah bestfren hana
mamalah teman hidup hana
mamalah teman shopping hana
mamalah teman gosip hana
mamalah tempat hana luahkan segala-galanya ma

mama
hana doakan Allah ampunkan dosa2 mama
hana doakan seksa kubur mama dikurangkan
hana doakan mama ditempatkan di kalangan org2 mulia
hana doakan mama dimasukkan dlm syurga

mama
hana sayang sangat kat mama
tapi Allah lagi sayangkan mama
takpelah ma, ma pergilah dulu

mama
di hari2 akhir mama
mama nk sangat tido
tapi mama tak dapat tidur kan?

sekarang mama dh boleh tido dah
mama tidur la sepuas-puasnya
mama tidurla dgn tenang

hana redha dengan pemergian mama..

Al-Fatihah..


*thanx to all my frens yg dtg. u guys cheered me up. yg hanta sms, sorry ade yg tak dpt reply, terlalu ramai. thanx to all the family yg dtg help us out. at least i feel there's a lot more ppl out there who still care about me.

i'm exhausted.

i'm confused.

i'm emotionally unstable.

sometimes i feel i wanna run away. dissapear for a while. i couldnt take this anymore. i'm really tired. but i cant run. i have to face this. i have to be strong. but i wonder, when will this be over?

all the burden is on me. i took care of her every single night. in the mornings i go to work. i have to clean and take care of the house. i have to wash the clothes. i have to give her support. i have to do everything. i'm exhausted. i'm really really exhausted. having brothers is not helpful at all.

God, HElP me. help me plz. help me to be strong. cuz i know i can.

??

susah ade close friend lelaki.

i always have mixed feelings.

congratulations sarah!

been to sarah's wedding last nite at kelab tasik putrajaya. it was a nice reception done by the lake. sort of a garden wedding with nice view and everything. started to 'berangan' already since i always wanted a garden wedding. pfft. the pelamin was sweet and the cake too was simple and cute. and of course the pengantin was both gorgeous.

met with a quite a lot of frens from high school. macam reunion pulak. some of them are also getting married soon. *sigh* where's my prince charming?

here's some of the pics.. more on my Facebook acct.

what would do if u're in my place? see ur mum suffer from treatments or let her live happily until the day comes?



today is a hard day for me. as well as for my mum. doing chemo is suffering. not just to the patient but emotionally to the ppl around. i've had an emotional breakdown this morning. i don't know what to do. my mum almost give up. she wanted to go home. i don't know what to convince her. to continue doing treatments (which is tersangatla peritnye) or just stop and go home and wait for the day comes (which is probably a few months)? Either way pun i tak suke. i hate to see my mum suffer but i want to see her live longer too.

i'm not good in convincing ppl. i don't know how to 'pujuk' ppl. all i do is just listen and keep her company. of course i pretended to be strong in front of my mum but deep down inside, tuhan jela yang tahu. at this point, i need ppl to support me. thank god, after talking to 2 of my frens (which coincidently availabe mase tgh breakdown tu) , i feel a bit better.

i know i have to be strong. i guess i have to try harder. i have to try really2 hard.
i will be. i hope so.

current favourite song =)

holding on

don't cry in front of your mum, it'll make her less strong

that's what my close fren told me. i still remember it and i always keep that in mind.

my mum have to be admitted to the hospital again. the leukemia relapsed. there's 62% of cancer cells in my mum's body. God knows how it came back all of a sudden. she have to go through the chemoteraphy again which also means a very painfull experience even to myself. i'd be lying if i said i don't feel sad. i am sad because i don't wanna see my mum suffer again. but i don't wanna keep feeling this way. i'm thinking positive. i'm praying hard and hoping for the best. who knows, after 1 round of chemo, she might be fine. i really hope so. i don't wanna worry too much.

smoge my mum cepat sembuh! amin..

my wish

my mum free from leukemia

updates!

my pc brokedown and i've been kinda busy. nuthing much has been going on anyway. only that i turned 23 last sunday and today is my dad's birthday. dinner at Sri Athathuya on last sunday and at The Ship tonite. makan besar berturut2.

went to the Asia Pacific Coatings Show @ KL Convention Centre. met with all the bussinesmen, chemists, managers etc. i think me and my fren was the only two person yg agak kebudakan. but kinda good exposure meeting up with all these ppl. not to mention met with one of the manager from thailand which is sooo cute. and he belanja us makan!

been updating my resume and start searching for jobs. not that i dont like my job now. it's just that i think i need a lot more exposure rather than just sitting in the lab and be the assistant of the chemists. my job now is easy. it's too easy. kurang berkembang. tak banyak blaja. i wanna learn more. but God knows bile i'll have a new job la kan. probably take a while. my fren/clique, sue, have got a new job and she'll be leaving me in about 3 months. which means i'm gonna be bored at work. like really really bored without her. no more gossip partner. i'm so jealous that she can easily got a job but i'm gonna find one too! hoping for the best!

bad news about my mum. she'll probably gonna be admitted again. right now waiting for the bone marrow test results. i really hope that everything's ok. that she doesnt have to be admiited again. plz plz plz. praying hard.

going to bed now. ngantuks. nite2.

i want to go swimming tomorrow. plz dont rain.

when u're a chemist...

If an experiment works, something has gone wrong.

When you don't know what you're doing, do it neatly.

Experiments must be reproducible, they should fail the same way each time.

First draw your curves, then plot your data.

Experience is directly proportional to equipment ruined.

Always keep a record of your data. It indicates that you have been working.

To do a lab really well, have your report done well in advance.

If you can't get the answer in the usual manner, start at the answer and derive the question.

In case of doubt, make it sound convincing.

Do not believe in miracles - rely on them.

Teamwork is essential, it allows you to blame someone else.

All unmarked beakers contain fast-acting, extremely toxic poisons.

No experiment is a complete failure. At least it can serve as a negative example.

Any delicate and expensive piece of glassware will break before any use can be made of it.

kebosanan melanda

harini cuti birthday agong. i stay one whole day at home. except teman mama pegi klinik and dinner. agak bosan la. at first ade plan nk hang out with my tmn tun friends tp mcm bz je semue. besides mcm dh last minute. yerla memule my utm friends plan nk hang out. pastu tak jadi, pastu jadi, pastu tak jadi balik. so nk buat plan pun susah.

ptg tadie ingat nk pi jogging tp hujan pulak. dah lame dah tak exercise. terase tak sehat pulak badan ni. dahla asik makan bende2 yg tak berfaedah je. dari haritu gian nk swimming tp tak beli2 lagi swimming suit. ssh betul la nk carik swimming suit yg sesuai. kan best mase kat jb dlu, mandi pki t-shirt sudah! tempat2 tertentu je kot yg tak kesah sgt pki ape tp mostly mmg strictly kn pki swimming suit.

i remember mase kat utm dulu. exspecially mase short sem. hari2 jogging beb! klu tak jogging pun, cycling. healthy lifestyle betul! dengan futsal nye lagi. mmg best gile la. dh balik duk kl ni, jadik malas. asik2 tgk tv, makan, tido. sangat tak healthy betul. i have to change this.

since this afternoon, i've been watching 'ezora' back to back online. best pulak cite tu. skrg ni dh suke plak tgk drama2 melayu ni. maybe bcuz dh makin logik compared to cite2 melayu dulu contohnye sembilu tu. gile annoying. besides suke plak tgk si beego tu. makin hensem lepas kawin then cerai. pfft. abis dah smue episod i tgk. tunggu yg akan dtg pulak.

over dinner with the family, we had this perbincangan hangat about my lil brother. whether he should pursue his degree in France (under JPA) or at UTP. my mum risau he cannot cope with the language and everything. my dad pulak menggalakkkan dea pegi. it's not his choice pun sbnrnye. at first tak dpt tp mase appeal ade 2 je engineering nye course. satu kat jepun, satu kat france. he chose France. tak sangke plak dpt. mule la smue bg pendapat. mcm ktorg pulak yg nk sambung degree tu. bak kate my mum "kt pulak pening2 kepala, ntah2 dea tido je kat sane (dea kat KMPP skrg)tak pkir pape pun". tau takpe!

ym-ed with a fren gak tadie. she had a problem in her relationship. knowing her story, kesian gile la. i feel sad too. tup2 dah baik balik. alhamdulillah. happy for her. suddenly dh pkir pasal kawin? hm advanced. maybe mmg kt dh actually smpi mase utk pkir psl kawin. i feel so kesian bile tgk org2 yg dh agak melepasi umur spatutnye utk kawin tp tak kawin2(apekah ayat ni?). mcm my senior chemist/clique, he's 33 and not yet married. kesian je tgk dea. kwn2 dea smue dh kawin dh ade anak. budak2 ofis pulak smuenye nk kenen2kan me and him. dea mmg baik orgnye, pendiam tapi terlampau baik smpi org bole pijak kepala dea. sometimes pkir, kesian jugak. perlu ke give him a chance? tp tanak la. tak boleh. he can be a good husband but i'm not sure he can be a good partner. he's too sweet. i just can't. besides cam dh anggap dea kawan, dh anggap mcm abang yg sgt protective. i wish i could find someone for him, pertolongan dr seorg kawan. erm teek? nak tak? hehe. *wink*

hm itulah kemerepekan ku harini. my thoughts of the day. saje je menghilangkan kebosanan. pfft.

my advanced birthday cake

ice cream cake! yum yum!


actually my workplace have this aktiviti bulanan thingy. every month we will go out and eat someplace nice together2 (girls only la tapi). and klu ade sape2 punye birthday on that month, celebrate skali la. so my birthday is on this month. skali ngn kak ana. so dptla birthday cake! yeayness! i actually requested for the ice cream cake cuz ade this kedai bakery kat sg buloh ni make the very the delicious ice cream cake. thanx so much akak akak smue!

dah lame tak celebrate mcm tu. normally my family pun bukan type yg nk celebrate2 sgt. wish happy birthday and that's it. no presents, no cakes. jarang2 skali. tp sometimes klu nak something, time birthday la mintak. but i'm not complaining pun. birthday wish tu pun dah cukup bermakna. cume teringat pulak zaman kanak2/remaja dlu (ceh mcm dh tue plak), siap buat birthday party, kwn2 bagi hadiah. it was really fun.

my birthday yg tak dpt dilupakan was when i was in form 3 i think. my frens buat surprise party yg tak surprise sbb dah kantoi. haha! that was like the best birthday ever. and that birthday was which i got paling banyak hadiah. satu box besar bwk balik. remember u guys? kiara park? hadiah paling besar is the big teddy bear from din and sara. still simpan ok! i remember kaz (i think) who asked me to close my eyes and just pretend to be surprise when i actually already knew about the party. apape pun, surprise ke tak surprise, i appreciated it. thanx so much. that day was a memorable day.

it is a nice feeling to celebrate birthdays or at least have birthday wishes but it is not a good feeling knowing that i'm growing older. i'm turning 23 in about 2 weeks and i just can't beleive it. dh tue dh aku? pfft. bak kate sue (my fren/clique), "ade lagi 3 thn nk carik jodoh. sempat tak ni?" hahahaha. (konon2la ktorg target 26 nk kawin). well, i pray for both of us la babe.

happy advanced birthday to me. bulan depan ice cream cake lg ye akaks? :)

damn la! ade this kursus about household and personal products formulation at UTM. it's what i've been looking for. essential oils pun ade. basically training pasal formulate product la. very very interesting cuz i really want to learn about making my own product. but damn it, it cost rm1250. bapak mahal! tak mampu beb. punah harapan terus! pfft. :(

David Cook won!

i am so happy that David Cook won the American idol last night!

for the first time i'm so crazy about the American Idol winner. he SO deserved it. very talented and very very gorgeous.

now should i change my nick name to Hana Cook? =)

i love zapin!

i'm in a mood of zapin rite now. been watching videos about it. :)

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i have a really really really weird feeling . it's scaring me.

possesive

one of the best songs from The Otherside Orchestra. (www.myspace.com/theothersideorchestra)


I like the way it's looking

But I cannot lie, I'm burning out

Why do I smirk? Why do I care?

Why must I hate it when she's there?

And I know it's just a little phase

But I just can't help it, I'm such a mess

I should give you up, but I still care

And you know you want me though she's there

Tonight under the moonlight

We'll dance into the sunlight

Don't fight what you feel inside

It feels right

You know this feels right

Tututu tututu …….

I'm getting, getting so out of control

You know you got me feeling so out of control

I AM WHAT YOU BREATHE

I'M ALL YOU NEED

DON'T KILL IT

DON'T YOU KILL IT NOW!

kekeliruan

stres!

i had a small fight with my mum (which we always do) and we haven't really talk to each other since the fight-yesterday morning. it's not actually a fight. more like me giving my opinions, she gave her opinions and we don't agree with each other, i'm dissapointed, she's dissapointed bla bla bla..and we don't wanna talk to each other because it might end up in a real fight and we might become lebih frust dan lebih stres! i'm ignoring my father too cuz i know he will say something about it and start membebel-ing. but he didn't say anything yet.

the thing is, i went to the PTD Assesment Program which i didnt really want to go. but i only went for the first day and i tarik diri for the other 2 days. actually i DONT want to go. since from the 1st stage lagi, i didnt wanna go cuz i'm not interested at all. time apply pun main2 je. but i go just because my parents asked me too. they keep on saying 'rugi tak pegi..peluang takkan dtg lagi..bla bla..'. but can u imagine doing something that u dont like? pegi program tu pun dgn hati yg terpaksa and tak focus. i dont care if it's something that i'm interested, i'll work hard for it. sure it's a great experience, but kalau tak minat, pegi pn hati tak tenang.

the worst part of all this, yg membuatkan lagi stres tu is at the end of it, i'm the one who's feeling really guilty and tak tenang jugak akhirnya. barulah start fikir balik, 'did i make the right decision?'. but i know i did. i think i did. but i feel bad for dissapointing them. it's like menghancurkan their dream. but what about my dreams? shouldn't i be the one yg decide which way that i want? i should decide for myself rite? so is it wrong? *sigh*

it's hard to decide what i want and what i need. to find a job that i want or a job that i need? i remember my fren's sister(in her early 30's) said, "ktorg keje nk hidup, korang keje nk satisfaction". it's quite true actually. i want a job that i feel satisfied and enjoy doing it. satisfaction is my first priority, money comes next. for me, klu keje gaji beribu-ribu pun, if it's not what u like and u're not happy, what for?

i'm getting bored with my job now. i wanna start applying for other jobs. hoping for going into shampoo/soaps/detergents industry. so klu sape2 ade kabel tu, silalah inform. wanted to go into Unilever tapi mmg sgt susah. apelagi ngn pointerku yg tak brape nk bagus ni. *sigh* byk betul halangan. and halangan yg plg besar is from my parents. exspecially my mum. my mum ni pulak ade some sort of power ke ape, kalau dea tak suke, mesti something bad will happen. like for example on my previous job, my mum didn't like me working there, in the end i didn't like it either. my mum pernah tak suke me going out with this one guy, and yeah end up mmg he's a psycho. back when i baru2 dpt license kete, dea tak kasi sgt me driving, but kat JB slamber pegi sewa kete driving here and there and i end up in an accident (which she doesn't know up until now :P) so that's why she's the biggest halangan. i have to please her too. walaupun it's my job and my life.

susah kan nk hidup? but that's what life is all about. it wouldn't be called a LIFE if it doesnt have obstacles. all we have to do is just try to think positive. maybe ade peluang2 yg lbh besar in the future. even if one day i menyesal for not going to the program, well, everybody make mistakes rite? we learn from it. it's hard to find a job that we want, but dlm hidup ni, we dont always get what we want kan? doa jela banyak2 and work hard for it.

dear GOD, please help me get through this life. bagilah petunjuk if i'm doing the wrong things. sometimes i dont realize it. open my heart, open my eyes for something i didnt see. give me confidence, give me srength. please oh dear GOD, forgive my sins. i know that everything happens for a reason.

I am so in love..





=)







with David Cook.


He melts my heart everytime..

exspecially with this performance..my favourite.. =)

spongebob dijumpai di masjid india

hahahahhaahahahhaa

Portishead - I like!!

best friend

i don't know if i still beleive in the term 'best friend' but i have to admit i miss having someone to be called a 'best friend'. for me, a true fren is someone who will always be there for u through ur ups and downs. the one who can give u strength and support in whatever u do and the one who cared so much about u that they don't hang out with u just because they have to but because they really wanted to.

lately, i feel like i'm lacking all that. i feel so jealous when i see ppl hanging out with their 'bestfren/s'. but then again, maybe i was too looking for perfection. maybe i wanted the attention so much that i feel i wanted someone to be with me everytime. i don't blame anyone. maybe it's just my thinking. i think about it so much i guess. the fact that i'm single unlike most of my frens might be one of the reasons i feel this way. but i thank god i still have my super duper cool frens. i feel love around me whenever i'm hanging out with my frens. i hope we'll be frens until we're married and have a family. insyaallah. to my frens who've accepted me as ur best friend, thank u so much. it means a lot. sorry if i did hurt anyone's feeling. i'm still confuse.

despite this, i do actually have someone who can truly be called a 'best friend'. that is my MUM. she's the only one i could turn to whenever i'm down. she could give me strengh and support in everything i do. we could have fun together and discuss about anything. well, almost. she'll be there, anytime, anywhere. before my mum is diagnosed with leukemia, i always 'mengadu' to her whenever i have problems. i will cry and she'll comfort me. but ever since she got sick, i don't actually 'mengadu' to her that much anymore because i know she has bigger problems herself. i don't want to burden her more with my problems. as i always have self esteem problems, i just kept it to myself. sometimes i just cry alone in my room just to let go of the feeling. my mum too always feeling down just like i do but she always acted strong in front of her kids. even when she's in the hospital when i was taking care of her, she always think of me first even though she's the one who should be taken care of.

i'm happy to see her smile again now. despite all the treatments, she is not 100% cure. although she's healthy now, i always have these thoughts.."will she be there when i'm married?","will she be there when i have babies?", "will she be there when i have to face a lot more dugaan in the future?", "will she be there when i'm successfull?" i once cried so hard because i was so scared i might lose her. day after day now, i try to spent as much time as i can with her.

well, everything happens for a reason. ade hikmahnye smue ni. i became a bit stronger. i learn to become a better daughter and to become a better person. and of course, a better muslim.

but dear GOD, please let me spent more time with my mum. my strength. my bestest friend. =)

ken lee..

I watched this video before but it reminds me again when carly smithson sang the song(original version) just now on American Idol. really funny! make me smile again. =)

emotional situation

fuck it. i can't stand this bastard anymore.

he's so NOT matured and so FUCKING annoying!

i feel like i want to quit the job cuz i can't even look at his face. merosakkan my mood every single day! but what for nk quit the job just because of him kan? i like the job. shit la!

just because i ignore him, he wants to ignore me jugak la. cuz he sms me every day and i tak layan. what for nk nk layan org yg main2kan org? then nk balas dendam ke ape?! he treated me like sampah! imagine he asked me to take the product myself from the store. kat tempat yg gelap/berhabuk and the box is not even opened yet. and i have to find a knife and open it myself dengan lipas berlari2 kluar. it's your job la mangkuk!

kerek mcm babi! then he said " sape yg kerek skrg?". pegi mampus la wei! tak puas hati pulak. dh ade awek nk menggatal. tak layan, emo! what kind of person is he ar?

urrgh tension! thank god i'm not in the same department. thank god jugak ade senior chemist yg understanding. he said just ask him to get it from the store if i want anything.

*sigh*. cant beleive ppl can behave like this.

go to HELL la fucker. pfft.

He simply make our day

oh my god. i met jericho in person! for those yg xtau, Jericho is the gorgeous phillipino actor. known from the famous series 'Pangako Sayo'.

i was meeting up with my utm friends at 'ole-ole bali' @ sunway pyramid when suddenly we saw him and we got super duper excited. gile obvious pulak tuh. so we actually took the chance to approach him and took pictures! well actually we asked the waitress to ask his permission and she helped us took the pictures. thanx akak! so it's now officially in our friendster photos and mobile phone wallpapers. LOL.

pelik tapi benar

haha. i cant beleive that i actually passed the test for the PTD-Pegawai Tadbir dan Diplomatik (SPA) post. i didnt really wanted the job actually. at that time, i main apply je. cuz my mum really menggalakkan myself to work with the kerajaan. didnt really care when i actually got the letter to take the test. mmg malas gile nk pegi exspecially when ppl say the test is damn hard but my parents asked me to so i just pegi la. and yes, it was damn hard. dahla kene wat 2 esei! hentam keromo abis la. the IQ test, wahhh mmg mencabar minda! anyway, dah lame dh pn. weeks ago. i just checked the results tadi and i kinda confident that i failed. but then it says:

Tahniah! Anda telah LULUS Peperiksaan Khas Memasuki Perkhidmatan Pegawai Tadbir dan Diplomatik yang telah diadakan pada 16/02/2008.

i'm like.."HAAA? biar betul!!"

siap key in 2,3 kali IC cuz tak percaye. haha! pelik gile. cuz mmg buat that test pn cam tah pape. so supposingly after this interview plak. see how la. =P

i thought i was gonna hurt him. but he did it first.

damn.

but we used each other. so fair and square la kan. pfft.

confuse

have u ever cry so hard that u yourself confuse of why exactly were u crying?

i did. and i'm still confuse.

it's a fucking weird feeling. u have no idea.

i wanted to share it with my frens but i can't. i don't even know how to express the feeling. it's confusing. it's like lonely+mad+tension kinda feeling. i don't know if i'm mad at myself, the situation or 'someone'. but i did feel so sad just for a stupid reason. pelik gile ok! ntah apela puncanya, tetibe je rase so fucking lonely and i feel like i takde kawan. i mean i have frens but not real frens that will always be there for me. i feel so alone even though ramai kwn. ntahla. confuse!!

wutever it is, i need my frens. and i miss my 'merepekianz gurls' back in utm. u guys never make me feel lonely. i was happy all the time! i guess sbb we were always together unlike now. and i'm not saying i'm not happy with my other frens. i sayang my tmn tun frens. i just hope we could lepak more often.

haih. pelik pelik. stupid jugak.

anyway, went out with fai just now. kinda mengurangkan kesedihan. so the ubat is,hang out la bersama kwn2. that works for me. LOL.

updates..

bulan ni genap 3 months i've worked at syncoates. everything's good so far. hopefully confirmla i kat situ. cuz after 3 months supposed dah confirm. naikla gaji ke rm2000. yeay! hopefully la kan. getting closer to the people there. not the mention, kat syncoates ni banyak 'buaya-buaya darat'. almaklumla kat situ brape orang je pompuan. and disebabkan i'm the only one who's single, asyik kene ngorat jela! dr budak kecik sampai la ke suami org anak dua ni( i call him 'org tua gatal'.ngahaha.) but fun la jugak melayan deaorg ni. i kinda love the attention. :P

i'm planning to buy a phone. a Sony Ericson phone. kinda interested with the k550i model. gonna buy it dlm masa terdekat.

i'm excited to watch Incubus live in Malaysia. at the Sunburst KL Music festival. kene simpan tenaga ni. rite puchi?

i'm sick but malas nk gi klinik. probably tommorow.

chow!

mimpi buruk

i had a terrible dream last nite. i was getting engaged! and i don't even know who's my going-to-be fiance. scary siot. i think it was at my grandmother's house and all of my relatives were there. dh macam kenduri dah! and i was so freaking scared. i can't remember who i talked to, but i remember i told her that i don't wanna get engaged cuz i'm not ready but then smue org dah datang. camne ni? almost nak nangis dah mase tu! dahla i was just wearing a simple baju kurung. org lain pakai lagi vogue ok! mmg bukan mcm org nk tunang la. then suddenly majlis dah nk mule. oh shit! and then i woke up. haha!

only God knows how releived i was when i realize it was just a dream.

giler tak bole blah. tah hape hape tah.

yuna-cool singer/songwriter

this girl is so cool. nice voice and all of her songs are so nice. sangat suke! this is one of her songs which is a bedroom cover of oh chentaku's polaroid. i want to see her perform live someday. layan gile ni. :P go yuna!

esok ari sabtu kene keje full day. sekian terima kasih. pfft.

[nasib baik dpt ang pow. :P]

single?

seems like everyone at my workplace can't beleive that i'm still single. haha. susah sgt ke nk percaye? they keep asking "betul ke takde pakwe?","knape takde pakwe?","tipu la takde pakwe..","biar betul takde pakwe?..". haih penat den nk menjawabnye. dah bosan dah ngn soalan2 nie.

yes i'm single. and available. LOL.

knowing the fact that i'm single, everyone dah bg assumptions that maybe i'm a bit 'memilih' or 'jual mahal' or stuff like that. i'm not any of that. am i?

a few weeks ago, my ex-boyfren called and asked if i could give him a second chance. he's been flirting with me before that but i just 'layan' him just like a friend. he asked me out a couple of times (actually banyak kali jugak la) but i always said NO and gave him plenty of excuses(sorry beb!). so that night, he called and confessed that what he did to me when we were together was wrong and that he have changed. i actually beleive that he have changed. he sounded like he's a different person now. but his feelings towards me and his sincerity is not convincing enough for me. i don't trust him anymore. i guess i can forgive but i cannot forget. and i don't wanna fall for him again. that's why i keep ignoring him before. its because i dont wanna let myself fall for him again. i dont wanna be with him again.

so is that called 'jual mahal' or what? i don't think so. i think i'm doing a right thing for myself.

i think i've learn a lot from my experiences in relationships. what to do, what not to do. i've been hurt and i did hurt someone before. that particular someone is also one of my closest frens. i wish i could have that special feeling for him as much as he did at that time but it's not there. and i keep falling for the wrong guys. haih! seeing him with his girlfriend of 4 years, i know that he's very very happy. and i'm so happy for him. i wish i could be as happy as he is.

GOD don't give us the people that we want. Instead, GOD give us the people that we need.

GOd make us meet a few wrong people before we finally meet the right one.

bencinyeee esok keje!! org lain smue cuti! kedekut cuti btul la syncoates ni. hmph.

angan-anganku

1. to open a cafe or restaurant of my own. (with bands playing while ppl having dinner)

2. to actually be good at baking cakes/muffins/brownies (in the making..so far so good. just xde masa sgt nk buat)and sell them. these are actually the first thing in mind for the menu of the cafe. :P

3. to create my own products such as shampoo, shower cream or fragrances using my chemical skills (still developing the skills. hoping to work in this kinda industry someday to learn more) and open a shop of my own. inspired by Body Shop.

4. to be in love again and have a loving, responsible great great husband.

5. to have a garden wedding. pfft.


angan-angan jela. not sure jadi pun. but yg penting ade angan-angan. huhu. but i really hope for the 2nd last. ok yg last pun nak jugak. pfft.

A short trip to PD

i had fun at PD with the tmn tun friends. we had barbeque at shaz's place on saturday nite. the plan was to have it kat pantai but then when we got there, it started to rain so we decided to do it at shaz's place but then kejap je hujan. damn.

the next day, we went to mandi manda di laut. we played the banana boat which is fun but tak puas cuz rase mcm sekejap je. next time nak naik lagi. haha. by tengah hari, we went back and we had a so-called surprise birthday party to shira (happy birthday shira!) and then we had lunch (at 4 pm :P)pastu terus balik kl.

although macam sekejap, but i think it was fun. hope we can have a trip somewhere else pulak. tunggu smue ade banyak duit. LOL.

take it slow..

i just love the lyrics. tiada kaitan antara yg hidup atau mati. :P

life is all about maybe's. we don't know what's gonna happen. after all, we're just ordinary people, we don't know which way to go, maybe we should take it slow.. :)

Ordinary people-John Legend

Girl, I'm in love with you
But This ain’t the honeymoon,
were pass the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times We get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday
I know I misbehaved
And you made your mistake
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this things work
But I think we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
'Cause we're just ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

This ain’t no to movie, naw
No fairytale conclusions, naw
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss then we make up on the way
I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances, we take second chances
Though it's not fair to see I still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
'Cause we're just ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you stay, maybe you leave, maybe you return
Maybe in another fight, maybe we won't survive
Maybe we'll grow we never know
Baby, you and I
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go, yeah
'Cause we're just ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
'Cause we're just ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow x3

reunion

kelmarin i went to klcc to meet up with some of my coursemates dlu time kat utm. it was fun since dh lame tak jumpe pun kan. so excited la jugak. ade ika,sue,teha,sitot,yon,jip,akim,megat and apis. we had lunch at chilli's where we were confused of who paid the bill. tetibe2 tau2 je bil dah dibayar. rupenye si yon dh bayar and trus kluar. saba je la kan. dah terkial2 kat luar tuh bagi duit masing2 kat yon. haha. hm then after that we went to petrosains. si akim la nk blanje. bagus btul 'abg' akim bwk kte lawatan sambil belajar ye? but sronok la jugak since kat klcc tuh ape la sangat bole buat kat situ. i think ktorg la yg plg kecoh dlm tuh mengalahkan budak2. tak sedor diri semuenye. masuk dlm tuh smue jadik childish gile. LOL.

bak kate apis, "ape lagi, balik nih blog ar" . macam tau2 je apis kan?

i miss them already. here's some of th pics but tak sempat nk amik gamba the guys. the girls je yg beriye2 bergambo, yg laki tukang amik gambo.haha. no offence guys! looking fwd to meet u all again!